11-30-99 (03:00)
  • going to sleep soon.
  • updated papers page...added two under english 101.
  • someone has been clicking on my sponsor a lot.
  • fuck peace cuz the streets got our babies - 2PAC
  • english paper is done. need to finish off the history paper - due monday...6 hours maybe.
  • poli sci paper #1 - 10-15 pages and research (lots) due thursday i have the overnight on wednesday so i should work on that tomorrow for about 10 hours. then finish it off on the overnight.
  • poli sci paper #2 - 10 pages and research (lots) due tuesday should work on that on sunday and monday (translation monday night and tuesday morning).
  • i've got 4 liters of mountain dew...should buy another 2 liter bottle for the reserves.
  • i think the marathon last year gave me too much confidence. too much confidence is a first for me.
  • i think i may as well write up my resignation now.
  • then i'll sleep.

  • 11-29-99 (22:29)

  • my monitor is dying slowly. damn. good thing they are cheap these days. bad thing i won't have money.
  • mov. files are playing now.
  • davis server is busy. first time in a while.
  • i have lots to do.

  • 11-29-99 (04:24)

  • tired again. slept too late. now i'll be more messed up.
  • updated recent movies list. again.
  • updating win98 with lots of patches. need more RAM.
  • this is hell week. i won't be updating much if i'm on task.
  • i'll be updating a lot this week.
  • i'm not able to play wma files still. not able to play mov or avi files either. what's wrong? mpegs are fine though. odd.
  • windows media player sucks more than quicktime.

  • 11-28-99 (09:59)

  • overnight was good. saw south park. it was really really funny. updated recent movies list.
  • got the custom beastie boys cds, they're cool. i'm not going to add those to my cd list...that would be cheating i think. i count bootlegs, but not custom comps. that'll be the rule.
  • really really tired.
  • got two 3 hour blocks of sleep last night.
  • i'm pretty much settled into windows 98 now. it's slower. need ram and probably a program like the nuts and bolts i had before that speeds up the menu scrolling. if you have such a tweeking prog....tell me please.
  • goodnight.
  • cross fingers for 49ers tomorrow...i'll be working. fuck!

  • 11-27-99 (12:28)

  • as is always true on format days i went to sleep at 730...why am i awake? i was going to a football game. i have no idea when it starts. we'll see.
  • using windows 98 now.
  • have installed almost everything. transferring all the backed up stuff from cd took a long time...still transferring mp3s.
  • some things in win98 run faster, some slower. odd. but so is bill gates.
  • don't think i missed any big files so i'm pretty much where i left off, except i have win98.
  • later.

  • 11-27-99 (02:37)

  • going to a football game today.
  • who's the leader of our pack?
  • only on more overnight shift in the 4 day period from hell.
  • had work from 5-10 today. tiffany wasn't there so it wasn't nearly as good. =)
  • need to catch bus at 420 in order to get to work by 5...bus is usually 10-15 mins late. i woke up at 415. after laying in bed for a second or two thinking about calling in sick or getting a ride from someone...i jumped out of bed threw on some clothes and biked to the bus stop...i was five minutes late and the bus (for the first time ever on a friday) was only 5 minutes late...we got to the bus stop at the same time...close call. it's a good thing i bike fast.
  • who's the leader of our pack?
  • i'm tired.
  • i should do something productive tomorrow.
  • it's foggy and sucky. i don't like this weather, but at least it's not raining.
  • i have to work monday too, cover for stacy.
  • who's the leader of our pack? M-I-C-K-E-Y  M-O-U-S-E...mickey mouse (sung by the soldiers amongst the backdrop of a burning town in the movie full metal jacket in the final scene).
  • sleep time

  • 11-26-99 (09:20)

  • monitor just turned off for no reason. great. turned off and back on now it's working. this is funny.
  • i might not format. i'm tired. i don't have much time.
  • overnight was alright...i have work at 5 which means bus at 4 which means awake by 3 which means less that 6 hours of sleep.
  • thanksgiving was pretty good.
  • i have 84 more hits this month than last...last month i had 30 more than any other month before. wow.
  • i really hope my computer waits a few months before dying. i saw a 17" monitor for 129 after rebate...that's crazy. i'd like a nice 15"...ha ha.
  • i really don't have any money. need to have money for books. quitting job soon won't help. need sleep. monitor might be needed soon. this one is older than i am....almost.
  • need to go to the post office damn.
  • i'll go and then i'll come back and sleep.
  • it's cold, foggy, wet, dark, and ugly outside.

  • 11-24-99 (01:22-?)

  • I'm formatting when I get more CDs - my computer has crashed a few times and i'm not having any of that bullshit.
  • i had updated this thing a bit, but then IE screwed me over so the changes were not saved. screw microsoft - again.
  • i'm either hot or cold. temperature wise.
  • about to start actual writing of the 8 page draft due tomorrow (today). done with outline, more or less.
  • mountain dew isn't kicking in. gay.
  • start anyway....hopefully i don't freeze in mid writing.
  • 01:52 - haven't started writing yet. you think anyone could be worse?
  • starting to get a headache.
  • i just got a whiff of cheeba, pot, weed, grass, hemp, THC, cannibus sativa, etc. damn that concert screwed me over in that respect.
  • i love music.
  • you were on an island with a couple friends and doing lots of drugs having a good time and then you and friend number two left (leaving behind friend number three who was going to stay there another day and then go on a safari for two years). then after two years you get a call from the island's police saying that your third friend (you guys were good friends while on the island, but you haven't heard from him in the last two years) is going to get executed for drug trafficking unless you and/or the other friend come to take the wrap along with friend number three who is on the island still. if just one of the two of you now free men goes home to take the wrap you will each get 6 years, but if all three of you take the wrap you'll get 3 years. what would you do?
  • at the thanksgiving potluck this question was posed and everyone, but me, said they would go.
  • i said hell no. think of someone you haven't talked to in the last two years who may have once been your good friend...i personally can come up with many - none of which would i throw away 3-6 years of my life for. this is 3-6 years in a bad prison system mind you. you'll get rat for food. some bread and muddy water if you're lucky. oh and butt-raping is mandatory. for three-six years...all for a friend whom you have not heard from for the last 2 years. granted you were not supposed to hear from them because of the safari, but i think everyone who answered yes was fooling themselves. or maybe i'm just a dick. tell me what you think you would honestly do. here
  • winamp just crashed. fuck. fuck fuck.
  • i format friday hopefully. (02:07)
  • sheryl crow has mad skillz.
  • not everyone wears sunscreen, but not every person is as wise as the next.
  • just had deja vu
  • i'm on my third paragraph, it's 243
  • 348 moving along. might have too much shit to write. it's a rough draft bear this in mind.
  • a backscratcher just came in handy, but i prefer one that will kiss me too.
  • bed ETA 630am
  • it's at least 5 degrees warmer in my room than inside the kitchen...advantages of small room filled with hours of my body heat. speaking of body heat my bed is cold. where do i come up with this shit?
  • when i bought four newly released cds today the guy noticed and said 'buying all the new stuff, eh?' i said 'yep, guns and roses was supposed to come out, but i guess it got delayed' he said 'yea probably next week'
  • i hope i get to work at tower. my kdvs peers might have my head for it, but screw them - it's a music store. jeesh.
  • back to work. 0408
  • one more thing - overnights on wednesday and thursday. friday 5-10, my favorite shift because tiffany works it, and saturday overnight tied for my favorite shift because hattie works it. that's 35 hours in four days. oh and thanksgiving is in there somewhere.
  • i'm thankful that my computer hasn't crashed in the last couple hours.
  • almost done. it be 512. i don't have too much stuff, but i could if i added another subtopic...i'll opt to wait for final draft for that. maybe.
  • 537 done. yea!
  • joe louis was after carl lewis...i didn't name him.

  • 11-23-99 (13:16)

  • updated cd list
  • guns and roses delayed to next week.
  • the beastie boys anthology was worth the liner notes alone...i would have paid 100 bucks for the 2 cds. a fan's dream. the liner notes are everything i've ever wanted in liner notes...i've talked before to vern and others about liner notes talking about each individual song and what the artist(s) think about the song or any funny stories about the making thereof...the beastie boys did it. thank you - you guys rock.
  • beck cd sounds really good so far.
  • everything about the beastie boys anthology is excellent...on the case it has pictures of all their albums and singles...it's a visual discography on the case and on the outside of the case is the same street as the paul's boutique cover except in black and white and an obviously 90s picture. it rocks they rock. need to read the notes.
  • bye

  • 11-22-99 (22:30)

  • monday night football was interesting - the (fucking) raiders lost. both teams (denver and oakland) are very alike - they both pretty much self-destruct and overall suck this year. however both have a lot of talent and potential to do well. i feel sorry for shannahan and gruden.
  • jackie and kassia are on kdvs now and kassia had never heard of kraftwerk...that's amazing.
  • my history paper has been reduced to 7-9 pages instead of 9 pages. yippee.
  • my english draft on a controversy of some kind is due wednesday. i'm planning on doing it on the designated hitter controversy in baseball...thought that would be more fun than abortion or something equally cliche.
  • i have to start watching more movies.
  • got the newest beastie boys (alive) video on mpeg - 40 megs of quality nathanial hornblower. modern day genius
  • speaking of which - holy shit! the sounds of science is released tomorrow - i'm there! along of course with many other great cds....oh and my ass in a chair working on a damn long essay. but i'll have good music to groove to.
  • there was an article in the paper about the rage concert - it was okay, the writer didn't get the whole quote from zach, but he got the general idea.
  • there was another article in the paper (the paper i hardly ever read, but may start picking up more often in light of the two good articles) by some guy who was talking about when you're lying in bed with a girl and she asks 'what are you thinking.' he said that emotions are unable to be expressed through words...i'd agree. he went on to add that music would better convey feelings...so if i'm mad maybe one day i'll flip on some korn (ha ha) and say "that's how i feel."
  • time to get ill.

  • 11-22-99 (16:46)

  • forgot to mention about rage concert: there was a fight (which added to the chaos i described) - i thought it was quite stupid. lots of people were cheering it on. we were a bunch of romans, but without the bear in the middle of the ring, more like the two gladiators...
  • i saw more idiots at the concert than i have seen ever.
  • i also saw lots of people who actually give a shit. that was encouraging.
  • redeemed myself with my last history paper...now just to fix my poli sci 131 grade. not an easy task.
  • i will for the next week grant rage against the machine a 'ghost' number two spot (in front of led zeppelin and behind the beastie boys) in light of the concert's greatness (for lack of a better word).
  • updated wish list
  • updated cd list
  • correction - westbam moved ahead of orbital AND propellerheads.
  • you should do something today.

  • 11-22-99 (00:38)

  • been thinking...as far as girls go i think that at first some of them (the few i meet) might think at first that my blunt humor is relieving and funny, but as time wears on it grows old, obnoxious, annoying, and unattractive. not like i'm going to change, but in the meantime that certainly doesn't help me with the few girls i do meet. oh and i'm too picky as well.
  • dust brothers make good music.

  • 11-21-99 (21:04)

  • rage fucking rocked. they had dialated people and gang starr open up for them...both of which are hip-hop bands so most of the people there didn't like them. i thought they were pretty good. they said fuck republicans which was nice to hear and they gave props to tupac which was awesome.
  • as soon as the lights went out for rage everyone went nuts...and when i saw Zach's dreds i started going crazy too. they played the following songs (the first five are in order and so are the last two, the middle ones are in a rough order):
  • (1) Testify, (2) Guerilla Radio, (3) People of the Sun, (4) Calm Like A Bomb, (5) Bullet in the Head, (6) Sleep Now in the Fire, (7) Bombtrack, (8) Darkness, (9) Born of a Broken Man, (10) No Shelter, (11) Know Your Enemy, (12) Bulls on Parade, (13) Freedom, (14) Killing in the Name.
  • only a certain number of people were allowed on the floor so you needed a wrist band to go down there. we got in, but some didn't...after the first act though a bunch of people made a mad dash for it, which was cool, the uncool part was when then ran over the security guards to get down the stairs.
  • at another point a bud light sign fell...it was a bit chaotic. but very cool overall.
  • once rage came on and testify got into it's bumping part everyone was jumping and it got extremely hot extremely fast...everyone was really close and crowded, but i didn't care at all. people were bumping from all directions. it was really fun even though i wouldn't normally think that it would be. but music changes all of the that.
  • sleep no in the fire is officially my second favorite song on the new album.
  • i got in the mosh pit on the last song...as soon as it hit the last part when everyone is yelling 'fuck you i won't do you tell me' they turned on the lights and i went in the mosh pit and got thrown around...it's very fun having absolutely no care for what happens.
  • they played every song i wanted them to play except wake up, but i knew they wouldn't because they need another guitarist for it.
  • Tom Morello got more into it than i remember from the video and that rocked.
  • Zach stopped the concert a few songs in and said something to the effect of: "this is the second night in a row that we've had to stop and say this. but it seems that there are a few men who are pussies in the crowd. there is a girl up here trying to dance and some of these guys try and take advantage of her. so if you real men see a brother trying to do some shit show him where the fucking door is" - Zach rocks in every way possible. i wish that there were more people like him.
  • my back hurt for the first two acts because there was so much standing, but once rage came on it didn't matter anymore.
  • i also got more play than i've gotten in two and a half years - a saw lots of knockers...many chicks were quite liberal with their tops...in fact they were liberal enough to get on their friends' shoulders and then take the tops off...in two and half years i have not seen tits in person...it was fun all around.
  • metallica has moved ahead of nirvana, but this was a long time in the making.
  • tuesday is an excellent day for cd releases...assuming ICE is right in their updates: Metallica (S&M), Anthrax (Best Of), Beastie Boys (Sounds of Science), Guns n Roses (Live Era 87-93), Led Zeppelin (Blast off: vol. one). they should all rock...both the b-boys and the gnr albums are 2 cd sets. r
  • olling stone said the beastie boys one wasn't that great, but they smoke lots of crack so you can't trust them. i've seen the track listing and it's good...but more for true fans than people trying to get to know the beastie boys...this much is true. but rolling stone should know that it's impossible to make a best of the beastie boys...they (like led zeppelin) are an album group...they make albums rather than singles...sure both zep and the b-boys have great singles, but you'd be lost without the feeling of the whole album...esp. paul's boutique and check your head...trying to sum up their career in two cds is fucking retarded. i do hope that they come out with a box set though...in 5 years or so.
  • may i reiterate...music is the best thing ever.
  • i got a free tape from blockbuster when phil bought paul's boutique and check your head (both at $9 each!) and it's pretty damn good...called methods of mayhem...hop metal i guess, but good. phil's purchase would have to amount to the best 18 dollars spent - ever!
  • this update is huge, but so was the concert...only 14 songs, i don't know what i really expected though...the last two were encores and they got people going so much it was amazing. music is powerful.
  • lots of people were smoking pot...i can still smell it...luckily i didn't get a contact high and luckily i didn't have to beat anyone up.
  • i've been offered new years parties with johnny and vern at san fran, phil and jon at tahoe, and efren in la....hmmmm
  • 49ers suck this year and it hurts, but i love them and i'm on their side...owens i love you too.
  • i love 2PAC too...when DJ Premiere from Gang Starr gave props to 2 PAC i just about jizzed in my pants...it was awesome. phil thinks so too.
  • oh phil's gone.
  • hattie was sick at the concert which sucks...i didn't get to talk with her. didn't talk too much to stacy either...that was weird.
  • room is messy again, who cares.
  • after concert we borrowed some street signs...mine says "bush st." uh bush, huh huh huh. hobo alley was too hard to borrow.
  • i haven't eaten dinner, but there was the potluck shit next door.
  • i got two shirts - one was a tour shirt the other was something about tears turning into stones and then slung at oppressors. scott got the latter as well. only 15 each...no gauging there...pretty decent price actually.
  • beastie boys rock more than you.

  • 11-20-99 (14:18)

  • phil is here.
  • rage is tonight.
  • radio sucks
  • bye

  • 11-19-99 (01:45)

  • there is quite the enthralling discussion on the message board.
  • la la la la la la la
  • finished paper in only 2.562 hours damn that's ... uh nevermind.
  • i should sleep considering the high probability of making a fool of myself at this hour coupled with the fact that i must arise at a young hour.
  • entertaining one's self is important, but not as important as a good foot massage and a pair of oreo cookies with milk and a bowl of strawberries and a beat box booming and uh, um, yea.
  • luke you must stop...this is your daddy. call me daddy.
  • fubarb. fucked up beyond all recognition.

  • 11-18-99 (20:08)

  • paper needs to get done now.
  • 220 lbs of anthrax sprayed over the DC area would kill 3 million people.
  • it takes 18 months for a nuclear rod used in a nuclear power plant to cool. holy hot shit batman.
  • westbam moves ahead of orbital. is still behind prodigy and fatboy slim.
  • rage is coming up quick i'm fucking psyched beyond belief. i hope i don't kill anyone and i hope no one kills me.
  • jesus broke up with his girlfriend...that's actually sad. damn.
  • monkey off the back i guess.
  • one drawback with that whole message board thing is you have to register, but it only took a minute and i just used all fake information.
  • catalog crap gets worse every day. dammit abebook dot com get your shit together.
  • need to start S-A.
  • i'm audi S8.

  • 11-17-99 (18:22)

  • had been toying with idea of message board on dis page since around february. well at the suggestion of another i've finally linked to the message board i signed up for 9 months ago. here it be. i figure it'll be a place where everyone can diss me publicly rather than just emailing me. it's uncensored, but remember that grandmas visit this site so don't make a fool of yourself or of me.
  • that's all for this update other than to say i'm over being a freak...it was a short lived stint in freakville...i'm back.

  • 11-17-99 (16:17)

  • this has been the longest half month of my life.
  • i've discovered in the past few days that i'm exceedingly able to entertain myself...watching TV has provided hours of internal commentary and mockery of the world. it's great to be able to laugh at yourself. however it makes me less likely to hunt for chicks.
  • i'm laughing right now at how retarded i am...it's wonderful.
  • what a freak of nature you are.

  • 11-16-99 (21:50)

  • eating takes a long time i guess.
  • dogma starts now...wish i was there.
  • johnny is the bomb...he really reads my webpage...all of it.
  • interesting page here...all about being the bomb actually...
  • luke is interviewing me...it's fun.
  • must start working.

  • 11-16-99 (20:13)

  • raining big time today = shitty.
  • dr. dre album is good...he's matured, but his beat and raps are still good. snoop...well snoop is awesome as usual. cd list updated.
  • my chair currently houses my clothes, not my ass. i need two chairs i guess.
  • printed out mp3 list on campus...finally. same for cd list, but it's already out of date.
  • need to make major effort to start essay tonight.
  • eminem doesn't suck. dre is a sensitive guy. so is eminem. eazy e is dead, but there's no hard feelings....this is good.
  • dinner is cooking.
  • rage against the machine is this weekend..hell yea. i need to find someone to cover for me...this is a problem. i shall call work now and see what i can do.
  • gotta go.

  • 11-15-99 (23:18)

  • started updating the blvd. books catalog...what a tedious process.
  • i added a new quote...my first attempt at being quotable...see if you can find it.
  • updated this last time using notepad...now i know what it's like for johnny

  • 11-15-99 (21:04)

  • pretty much wasted today.
  • mom looks to be coming up for thanksgiving...just the day. seems a waste to me, but her choice not mine.
  • i need more blank CDs already. damn i went through the last 50 really quickly.
  • i did read today. maybe i'll write a response to one of the stories and get that out of the way. or not.
  • did laundry so can't delay by doing that.
  • oh i'll vacuum!
  • tomorrow i should finish up my 5-7 page essay. yes i should.
  • hope i'm not being too self-indulgent by upkeeping this webpage (just kidding vern).

  • 11-14-99 (20:20)

  • i have lots of stuff to do for the blvd. books page. the people that post the catalogs online are really picky about how the catalog is supposed to look so that's a pain in the ass.
  • stacy finally comes back today.
  • got a hit from Australia ...cool i guess.
  • i actually took a nap during the overnight...that's a first. i was so tired.
  • wonder what's going to happen with me a month from now.
  • stevie wonders too.
  • phil is going to the rage concert...should be dope.
  • updated recent movies list.
  • ...and your dancing to my beat.

  • 11-13-99 (17:44)

  • i need to learn to not have a chip on my shoulder...that's all i'm saying.
  • computer show was really small, but got me back in touch with the inner dork.
  • westbam rocks and so does prodigy.
  • overnight is tonight. maybe i'll take a nap before i get there.

  • 11-13-99 (12:25)

  • 12 hrs later...
  • i've decided that on the whole i don't get along with people. maybe it's because i'm picky, or 'negative', or 'grumpy' as one person put it, but for some reason hearing doors slamming a foot from my head in the morning isn't to my liking...of course if i said anything about it i'd be a grumpy dickhead who's just cracking down on people for no real reason. hearing about people getting drunk first thing in the morning is, to me at least, not to my liking and for this reason i'm a bit odd...i udnerstand this, but i don't really accept it. of course nothing can be done about it. i wonder if 30 years from now people will look at my views and think them perfectly normal and look at those who talk about getting drunk while laughing and mock them. probably not. until then - woe is i and i'll just be the grumpy one.
  • here's another pet peeve. when you've met someone before and talked with them for a bit and then they have no idea who you are later. that's a real jorgay type of thing to do, but here i am being negative again.
  • i kinda wish no one read my webpage so i could write whatever i wanted without fear of offending someone.
  • i should eat.
  • i also kinda wish i could put on the happy face that Annette Bening is able to put on in American Beauty...that would be a great assest in this world where emotions are supposed to be concealed.
  • i'm happy again. =)

  • 11-13-99 (00:25)

  • well my streak is officially over...by 26 minutes, but over nonetheless. i've finally missed a day of updating.
  • did not, however, break the other streak...got another CD today. the so what'cha want single by the beastie boys. i had all the songs already on mp3, but i still had to buy the single...it's a really good single. 7 songs, but it also cost 17 bucks...i am a strange character indeed.
  • work tonight was pretty decent...only four kids and one was gone for the weekend.
  • i'm unusually tired. rather the being tired at this time is weird, not the type of tiredness.
  • did you know that grammatically the saying 'woe is me' should be 'woe is i'? there is a book of grammar called 'woe is i' so that's the only reason i know that. oh on the grammar tip - remember that it's not who you know it's whom you know.
  • actually there is one track on the single that i don't have on mp3...yippee. updated cd list.
  • i got an assignment in english today - 9 page paper, due dec 2nd. this means a couple things. 1) i'm fucked. 2) i have a 9 pager in english, a 9 pager in history, a 10 pager in pol 163, and a 10 pager in pol 131. all due between dec. 2 and 7. i have a 5-7 pager due by friday too.
  • i love school about as much as gore metal and pop hop and puff daddy all playing twister, naked, drenched in mayo and parmesan cheese.
  • damn that was good it started out as: i love school about as much as gore metal. then it went from there. sure it doesn't make sense, but it's quite the insight into my little world or something.
  • i wonder if it's possible to love anything as much as music. i guess it is, but jeez that's a true test. lemme think about this actually. if i could never ever hear music again in my life, including in movies, i think i might be an extremely sad person. while on the bus i was going through songs in my head the whole time...i went from metallica to handsome boy modeling school to wyclef to causey way to prodigy to babe ruth to the doors to deejay punk-roc...without something to stimulate that on a daily basis i might go crazy. at any rate.
  • i'm too anal when it comes to things i own. borderline selfish even. that's not good. i've examined and pinpointed the problem, now i will flip the switch. problem solved. yay. it's a good thing i have complete control of my emotions. speaking of which...
  • i was biking home from work today and passed a line of cars when this guy yells at me as i passed. i took this as a cry for help, but i did not respond. i prepared to stop ahead at the red light (this is unusual so i have to explain). it was at the entrance to downtown from south davis and there was a lot of traffic...too much for me to dodge even. when the light turned (before i was at the light or had fully stopped) his driver friend peeled out and zoomed up to me and as i turned with them and onto the sidewalk the idiot yelled at me again. for some reason this annoyed me more than usual. i yelled back and begged him to try something. he didn't and they drove ahead. just before i reached the tunnel a sprinkler sprayed me with water. i was happy.
  • i deposited my paycheck...i moved the decimal point in the wrong direction...e.g., from 100.00 to 10.00...gay. will call tomorrow...today, whatever.
  • i update often and much. this one took an hour...if you count the time it took to put the new sponsor animation together.
  • stacy comes back finally on sunday. yippee.
  • wanna get my smurf on. track 8 on the westbam CD.
  • radio show was good but vern was a bit late. i don't hold it against him though, even if he thinks i do.
  • i'm a dork - i'm probably going to the computer show with jon tomorrow. it's weird how phil, jon, and i can be overall pretty normal people - listen to normal music, live basically normal lives, but be such dorks when we get together. for example: i've got 512k cache onboard, they've got 512k cache on their cpus - i'm jealous. they've got agp and scsi motherboards - i have ide, not even udma and i'm jealous...the point isn't that i'm jealous, rather it's that most people don't know what this means most don't care and most hear this and think "what dorks." we are dorks and we know it.
  • i'm tired still. not sure why i'm awake.

  • 11-11-99 (19:40)

  • so phil has, on a weekly basis, been formatting his hard drive...for about the last year he's been doing this. i feel for him. he's got it down to a system and thanks to the cds i gave him he's able to have most of the programs he needs without having to download them...although with a dsl connection downloading isn't much to worry about.
  • finished my history paper. the nine pager is due in december, don't let me forget that i also have two other 10 pagers due that week. mountain dew is good.
  • i *69ed the last call...couldn't go through which means it was out of davis. wasn't phil so it may have been a telemarketer...i hate those fucks. i have no more patience. for a while i did...now i vow to screw every single one of them.
  • i bought two more cds...i'm horrible. 22 cds to go...what a breeze. i'll just eat pasta for a while.
  • my english class is actually a good class. i have an essay due tomorrow, but i might take my late option...i have a reputation to uphold...i think it sucks getting "A"s cuz then you have to get them all the time. this is not a problem in my other classes, thankfully. i finally know what it's like to be johnny, or someone else with consistently good grades. my curse is only in english and is probably fleeting so i'm not too worried about finally breaking that b+ barrier. i'll miss the final if i have to!
  • if i get any emails asking me if i'm serious or worrying about my grades then i will be forced to never again update my page rather than to say 'today was a good day...everything is well and done. by the by i am doing exceedingly well in my studies and am quite proud of my academic marks this quarter.'
  • i must retire to my studies now and not waste another second with this mindless dribble.

  • 11-11-99 (09:00)

  • overnight was good...HATTIE is the bomb. hope that satisfies that need.
  • finding mp3s is becoming harder. of course i don't use aol or hotline either so that hinders progress.
  • had a message on my machine when i got home - it was a hang up. fuckers. i will *69 it later, but they won't know what i'm talking about.
  • got two telemarketers calling me last night...was nice to the first...10 mins later i told the second to fuck off and said he was a prick, or something to that effect.
  • found out who the aol hit was from. hattie. there's another hit. hattie. that's three.
  • westbam is rocking deez nuts....right now!
  • laffy taffy changed their wrappers...for at least the last 10 years they have been the same then one day i check and they're different...what the fuck? it used to be that i was able to get up to 3 jokes per wrapper now it's always 2. this is gay. they taste good still, but don't seem as soft. i'll live.
  • when i get paid i might finally get the turntable i've been saving up for.
  • think i'll sleep now. sometimes the only thing that makes me want to wake up is the prospect of listening to a new cd.
  • i'm a beatbox rocker and you're dancing to my beat...i'm a beatbox rocker and i never sound the same. and you're dancing to my dancing to my dancing to my dancing to my beat

  • 11-10-99 (14:23)

  • took a shower today...that's not the newsworthy part, trust me. after i got out i noticed a message on the answering machine...i checked and it was a hang up. I called them back using the now infamous *69, and the guy on the other line denied having called me. this is the second time in a week this has happened. damn damn damn. please leave messages people!
  • i've been getting really weird hits lately...people using AOL, people using NT without a domain name. people, other than vern, using macs. i've never seen these hits. i'd say i'm getting a few new visitors lately. hmmmm.
  • got another cd in mail. drummers of burundi. 30 mins of drums, and some yelling. at least it ends well.
  • 310 is the count.
  • tomorrow will be 10 year anniversary of ....do you know?
  • got a good grade on my english midterm. at least i'm doing well in one class.
  • bush is like the foo fighters...talent without the consistency...waiting for a best of for both. it's sad because most alternative rock groups are like that.
  • it rained...shit. i still resolve to NEVER take the bus to school.
  • whenever someone from the apc crew rips an mp3 it sounds too high pitched. it's all good because it's not that bad and they are responsible for most of the mp3s out there. wtg guys.
  • i'm extremely happy to have a working computer...uh oh i feel another one of those massive lists coming (ala the i want list)...i'm extremely happy to have: a working computer, a receiver that works, speakers that help me feel the music, a printer, a good sized cd collection, a radio show, a camera above my monitor, an almanac, a good dictionary, a good bike, a friend like phil, a 13 inch cock (although sometimes it's a liability), a savings account (even though it only has 25 bucks in it), a mom and dad, a dad and mom, people who care enough to visit my webpage, a job that isn't useless, time, an education, eyes, two legs, etc., shelter, a sense of humor, some self-control, the ability to drive a stick, holidays, friends that care, co-workers that don't suck, administration that doesn't go to work while i'm there, lots of cds, lots of cds, a house that has visitors, a house that doesn't suck, friends who have friends, female friends, people who email me just because, a MD recorder, an exacto knife, a back scratcher (although it would be better if it were a girlfriend), time, posters that say something about me, a globe, yearbooks, pictures of my glory days, a cool sister, memories, adam sandler cds, found the beastie boys, GetRight, a safeway nearby and friends who care.

  • 11-9-99 (19:01...cont.)

  • turning computer off for a day.
  • the planet rock (afrika bambaataa) CD is pretty good and takes an element from the song 'the mexican' by babe ruth, feat. on the dirtchamber sessions by prodigy...pretty cool. deejay punk-roc is a good cd...i realize this more every time i listen to it. the perrey and kingsley cd is interesting, but good.
  • i was watching tv today...a rare event...and i saw judge joe brown go off on this one 18 yr old guy. he kept saying stuff like "i know you perping the g style...fronting like you a man. you ain't got no manhood in you! running around wit yo homies smoking the rock and coming off like you be g's! you need to get your stuff together. stop banging and strolling like a gangsta. stop kickin it wit those fools who try and pull a cap job" it was pretty funny, but really truthful. then they showed a judge judy clip...she was lecturing someone else...she didn't have quite the tact as judge joe brown though.
  • learned well in class. wish i wasn't tested on it though.
  • instant rice is for wussies and college students...i'm neither, ergo i don't own any instant rice.

  • 11-9-99 (13:18...cont.)

  • added a little aesthetic improvement. when you hover your mouse over a link it'll turn bold. neato.
  • got three cds...kinda expensive because i'm trying to fulfill a membership requirement, but still came out cheaper than tower. updated cd list. westbam cd is pretty damn good, esp. track 9 - it rocks da house. afrika bambaataa should be good...he's old skool. perrey-kingsley should be interesting...beastie boys got their instrumental CD title from the title of this CD so that's why i bought it.
  • major development: i cancelled columbia house (one of my three memberships thereof, i also have bmg) and they sent me an offer i couldn't refuse...stay with us and we'll give you 15 free cds...all you have to do is buy 4 over the next 2 years. so i'll probably be getting 15 cds in a month or so for about 15 bucks worth of shipping and handling and taxes. that will help conquer the 335 goal. i'm set now.
  • that's it.

  • 11-9-99 (03:41)

  • stacy's gone till sunday, that sucks.
  • work meeting today at 12p. rsvp (pick classes) at 9:30a.
  • wasting time. should have gone to sleep about 4 hours ago.
  • reaching 2500 hits. yippee.
  • made list of cd releases for my reference, copied some cds, re-arranged the portable cd case, basically occupied time with retarded activities. i'm excellent at that. maybe the best.
  • mp3s haven't been coming in...the man is cracking down on all my fun.
  • second hard drive is getting full of free music anyway. we need mp4 conversion programs or something.
  • class from 3-6p today that should be boring. except the hot chick in my foreign affairs class. ha. chicks are a foreign affair indeed. ha ha.
  • this webpage tells much of my insanity...i was looking at the picturesand the archives and i realized i'm a, how to put this...a weird person. eccentric, odd, off-beat, interesting, fill-in-the-blank. this time i'll blame it on my dad's genes rather than my mom's habit of dropping me as a baby. disclaimer: she didn't really drop me so i am hereby shed of all liability in the cases of slander, defamation, calumny, and libel. thank you.
  • i hereby proclaim...
  • i just wanted to say something grandiose, but, alas, i drew a blank.
  • bob marley is good.
  • who bbc sessions 1cd, comes out today...i haven't the funds to acquire it.
  • i'm talking like have a montblanc pen in my ass...goodnight.

  • 11-8-99 (cont.)

  • i finally found marie (the cd lady) on ebay. different email address...maybe now i'll be able to get the weekly lists sent to me again. whew. that's a big help on the 335 goal.
  • within the next three tuesday's the who bbc sessions, dr. dre 2001, run dmc crown royal, metallica symphony shit, beastie boys sounds of science (2cds), guns and roses live (2cds) , queen greatest hits 3, doors complete studio recordings (7cds), anthrax best of, and led zeppelin Blast Off: Volume One. holy shit is all i have to say.
  • got tool cd in the mail...that was pretty quick. it's good. now i know why my dad wanted it.

  • 11-8-99 (cont.)

  • think i'll get a haircut now.
  • pink floyd cd is pretty good so far.
  • johnny's page promises to be even better now after vern has joined the crew as well. hopefully it will get updated more - that would be really cool. hopefully it will inspire vern to write more stories too.
  • made the sidebar in roughly in order of when i last updated that respective page.
  • lately i've been seeing more friends on campus...this is a good thing and brightens my day at least 3.76 fold. not sure if it's possible to get 3.76 folds of anything, but it sounded good at the time.
  • work called me in at 930, then mom called at 940, then i ate breakfast burrito at 1020, then class at 11, then back here at 210.
  • list of best musicians, cds, songs, composers etc. of the last 1000 years...a sad compilation overall if you ask me. black sabbath and led zeppelin are missing completely. so is anything relating to techno or hip hop. (with the exception of best song number ten as Unfinished Sympathy - Massive Attack). no pe, beastie boys, run dmc, grandmaster flash, sugar hill gang, prodigy, kraftwerk, etc.
  • bye

  • 11-8-99

  • ill communication is an awesome cd...a cd everyone should at least give a try.
  • been up for 28 hours.
  • monday will be crack down day school-wise.
  • that's funny

  • 11-7-99 (cont.)

  • updated cd list.
  • here's what an 8 year old boy wrote to one of our female staff (i've preserved the spelling for effect):
  • from: tim
    to: the bich
    dear: nichole your a real bich. your a gutter-slut bich and a hor for a uggily staff bich. your a real kunt so fuck you bich.
     
  • i thought that was a bit sad.
  • i got the cd case, yips.
  • 11-7-99
  • overnight was the same.
  • breakfast burrito bash was the same.
  • 2PAC rocks.
  • appreciation is selcom given enough. this is why i like johnny's praise page.
  • i appreciate my mom, johnny, and others who visit my page regularly because they care.
  • i'm not going to goto sleep today even though i have the overnight.
  • i'm going to dimple records. i hope they have rare stuff. either way i'll probably get another portable cd case. =)
  • peace to all my homies in lock down.

  • 11-6-99 (barely)

  • i'm updating a lot more lately...not because i am more idle, rather because i've decided to do something while idle rather than sitting. studying would be too rational, ergo i only engage in such heinous activities when all other options are exhausted.
  • updated cd list. there was a miscount...i have more cds than i thought. i have 302 now. in light of this new evidence i've increased my goal to 335 CDs by 12-31-99 11pm.
  • i got pauls' boutique and check your head today on vinyl...for those of you who know my room well you will know that paul's boutique is already on my wall and check your head is with the rest of the vinyl, but unsealed. for this reason i was forced to get an extra copy of each. so now i have two copies of paul's boutique on vinyl. two copies of check your head on vinyl and CD. i'm a nut, but more like a cashew so at least i taste good.
  • i can type fuck and .com rather quickly...the latter ails me a bit.
  • my hotmail email address has become the internet whore of the month...good thing it's hotmail.
  • i've heard of mail bombers that put you on a shit load of newsletters and email whore lists...i think that's the way to go if you are going to really fuck someone over. i'd never do such a thing of course.
  • radio show rocked - second week in a row...we don't give a shit about the people in the studio or making fun of things...this is harder to do during prime time. back in the day when we were the only ones at the studio from 2 am to 4 am it was easy. we made fun of the NRA last week and this week of the american dream and TV and violence being allowed on tv, but not sex...after all violence is the reason america is so great and the world is what it is. sex never got anyone anywhere. i made the argument that violence is natural and sex is not...stutter and i then concluded (very sarcastically) that this is the reason sex isn't allowed on tv, but violence is. we also think that the europeans are all backward because they have nudity on tv.
  • lights out, guerilla radio!
  • scott is the only one to attempt (and succeeded) in the riddle on the "11-5-99 (barely)" update. go scott. i didn't think anyone would get it.
  • all hell can't stop us now! all hell can't stop us now! all hell can't stop us now! all hell can'st stop us now! asfdlkj;lkjfdlkj;fdsa
  • i didn't know till today, but amoeba music has a website here. it's a fairly popular music store in berkeley and SF. the website just gives info, no searches, but it's cool i guess.
  • i got a jury summons a bit back...i will not reply and see what happens...i'll plead ignorance, saying that i'm up here so i didn't think i needed to reply if i wasn't eligible. that is if they decide to follow up...dubious.
  • i'm calm like a bomb.
  • coffee ice cream is gone...woe is me.
  • updates are long and often...like my sex sessions...ha ha! that was ad lib too. i'm unstoppable. i'm also gone. late.

  • 11-5-99

  • i'm a star. i'm a big bright shining star, i am a star i am a star i am a star.
  • if you know what that's from you are cool, if not you need to get out more.
  • led zeppelin IV is playing now. four sticks.
  • kdvs in an hour and 15 mins...yip. e.
  • the last midterm was today - best of the three.
  • got a b+ on my last english essay. yippee.
  • work from 5-10...i hate fridays. especially when they're not ones i get paid on.
  • going to california. someone told me there's a girl out there...with love in her eyes and flowers in her h-air...rober plant rocks.
  • busy busy busy.
  • when the levee breaks.

  • 11-5-99 (barely)

  • i have led zeppelin I-IV in my cd changer now...as close to heaven as possible without pulp fiction playing on my computer, a turkey and avocado sandwich in my hand, and a girl on my lap...oh jeez...oh jizz.
  • i remember one time being in the car getting off the 405 freeway and on to sepulveda blvd. and being mad at my sister. i called her a jizz wad, not knowing what jizz was. my mom admonished me and said "chris! do you know what that means?!" i said no and she said softly "semen" or some other word, and at that point i knew what it meant.
  • coffee ice cream rocks. it reminds me of the good ole days. did i say that earlier?
  • updated recent movies list...saw american beauty with stacy...and fargo...and i think planes, trains, and automobiles is a recent add too...
  • oh yea...midterm was horrible...did i say that earlier?
  • i don't know what i've told to whom...i don't know what day it is or what time it is...it's kinda interesting actually...sometimes i think that the best way is to get a regular schedule and go to sleep at midnight wake up at 9 and goto class and work, etc.....routine. but that's a little too much 'heel to toe' for me. that's from vern's little social commentary story on johnny's page. basically i don't want to be a nine to fiver. so i'll go to sleep at 1am and wake up at 6am and then goto sleep again after class if that suits me.
  • hidden word in the first line of this update...if you think you can find it mail me no i'm not going to tell you the answer you have to figure it out or you won't get it. you'd have to be pretty bold to ask for hints too!
  • head fucks are great...american beauty and fight club being two of them.
  • i'm slightly sleepy now.
  • i think it's gay that ebay shuts down their servers for 4 hours from 12-4...that's when i'm most likely to bid...jeesh.
  • updated cd list.

  • 11-4-99

  • for $3 and a bit of time i can make two cds and use them as a birthday present. a good investment (the cd writer, that is).
  • mp3s rock and help in making cds...i've spent weeks downloading songs and with a cd writer it pays off. yay.
  • midterm sucked big time. this quarter is bad.
  • freshman year i was adjusting, sophomore year i was in the "sophomore slump" and next year comes senioritis, but i have no excuse...maybe i'll make one...jack off juniors...junior jam...i don't know.
  • gimme! gimme! gimme!...a man after midnight...uhm i mean woman. actually that's an abba song in case you done didn't be knowing that already.
  • spiders are out in full force, fucking up the ride to and from school. da webs be invading da air. word!
  • rage against the machine cd is officially good. not album of the year though...yet. rick rubin is winning the battle of the producers this year. that's your only hint to my pick so far for album of the year. if you can count best of albums then the sounds of science cd has already won without even being released yet. i have the track listing because i have hook ups or some shit...it rocks.
  • big gun!
  • number one.
  • if anyone knows half of what i'm talking about then we should probably get it on or something. obscure ass references. big gun!
  • ring deez nuts.
  • what you want...baby i got it...for a little respect...just a little bit. ooooh your kisses...sweeter than wine. sing it aretha!
  • i'll stop before the damage is too much

  • 11-3-99

  • it be 8:55am...class in two hours, afterwards i'll nap.
  • midterm tomorrow and friday.
  • frozen republic by lazare is a good book about why the constitution should be thrown away...and why we should start over. interesting.
  • updated the editorial page.
  • 5 updates...three days...you guys must be thrilled!
  • here's my TA writing the class:

  • I am very sorry, but I will be unable to hold office hours on Wednesday for Group Politics due to illness.

    I suggest you study for the exam by reviewing the notes carefully, being sure that you note the themes of the various lectures. Be familiar with the major examples Professor Wade has offered in class and the concepts these examples illustrate.  For the Hollow Core, be sure to have read the book.... then review the material by once again, looking for the big picture questions - what was the purpose of the book?  what were the findings?  how were these results different from what might have been expected through popular wisdom or other theories of group politics?

    I will check my email frequently so send your specific questions that way if you have them.
     

  • here's what i might write in return: "sorry to hear you are ill, i, too, have come down with a cold. i have a few quick questions: what was the purpose of the book?  what were the findings?  how were these results different from what might have been expected through popular wisdom or other theories of group politics? thank you. -chris miller.
  • i wonder what would happen...if i was a grad. student i would tell them to fuck off and eat an apple.
  • i've got mental problems, but that's okay i'm taking prozac, depakote, paxil, and zoloft. i don't think i know what i'm talking about.
  • king of pain is my favorite police song...just discovered this today.
  • enya is good...tis true
  • after reading the updates i just made i can safely say that i was dropped as a baby. of this i was not sure until now. i've decided to sue my mom and babysitter. consider yourselves warrrrrned!
  • that 'warrrrned' part is from the first track on public enemy's 'it takes a nation of millions to hold us back'.
  • stay away is a good nirvana song.
  • added tomato to my world famous breakfast burrito. it added a good texture and temperature difference, but the taste neither helped nor detracted, thus i may continue to add tomato. the more garlic powder the better.
  • got taxi driver in the mail yesterday...yippee. will watch sometime within the next year.
  • exile is a good enya song.
  • this is a long update.
  • in two point five months this page and i will have been going out for 2 years. will have been: future perfect, active, indicative tense/voice/case...latin learned me something. if it's not the future perfect, active, indicative then you'll understand why i took it on a pass/no pass basis.
  • www.kosmic.org - free mp3s, legit, good, ambient, drum and bass, techno, dance, break beats, good, etc. it's my home page.
  • 2 legit 2 quit! MC Hammer time.
  • now i'm tired. this sucks. it only took 3.5 hours of meaningless rambling and sitting.

  • 11-3-99

  • two months it'll be 2000 - weird.
  • updated favorites...paul's boutique advances and ill communication moves down.
  • it's 6:49am and i'm awake...but only because i went to sleep at 1am...woke up to go to the bathroom and now i can't fall asleep again.
  • had midterm yesterday...thought it was on thursday so that didn't help much...biggest fuck up of college career i'd have to say.
  • oh boogie nights moved ahead of die hard, but this is only until i watch die hard again...then i'll make the final decision...so don't get your panties in a bunch...where did i get that from? a movie or something...yea blame it on the movies.
  • www.gaymart.com
  • interesting?!

  • 11-2-99

  • smegma is the worst word ever. look it up.
  • now i know how led zeppelin fans must have felt when in through the out door was released...or even more so physical graffiti.
  • officially sick.
  • it sucks.

  • 11-2-99 (barely)

  • updated mp3 list.
  • updated wish list.
  • carl lewis is #12.
  • ali, frazier, ruth, mays, brown, pele, wagner?, schmidt?, the bear, jim thorpe?, jordan, gretzky, jesse owens, it's late and i cunt come up with any more. that's a quick list of other possibilities as i see it. i'm sure there's someone i'm missing.
  • i can't see schmidt and wagner being in there but it's possible i guess...jim thorpe was a pure athelete, but not dominate at anything for very long...not like the others anyway.....don't know if johnny bench was chosen or not. morceli, komen, and gebrselassie are great and in ten years could be in the top 100, but they're from track so that doesn't help.
  • why am i awake still?
  • i like yahoo more than ask jeeves.

  • 11-1-99

  • last month's updates here.
  • three midterms this week. two on thursday. yay.
  • spent way too much money on food last month. books were the most they've ever been. music was above average at 262.
  • my goal of 330 cds is an ambitious one, but attainable...
  • rage against the machine comes out with their new cd tomorrow....hell yea. i've been waiting over a year for this.
  • happy birthday to adam horowitz - adrock of the beastie boys... he's now 32! which means he was 18 when he first became a 'star'....imagine touring with run dmc and madonna at 18 or 19.
  • i'm 20.
  • that's all.