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8-30-00 (19:39)

BYU grooming codes:

Men

A clean and well-cared-for appearance should be maintained. Clothing is inappropriate when it is sleeveless, revealing, or form fitting. Shorts must be knee length or longer. Hairstyles should be clean and neat, avoiding extreme styles or colors, and trimmed above the collar leaving the ear uncovered. Sideburns should not extend below the earlobe or onto the cheek. If worn, moustaches should be neatly trimmed and may not extend beyond or below the corners of the mouth. Men are expected to be clean shaven; beards are not acceptable. Earrings and other body piercing are not acceptable. Shoes should be worn in all public campus areas.

Women

A clean and well-cared-for appearance should be maintained. Clothing is inappropriate when it is sleeveless, strapless, backless, or revealing; has slits above the knee; or is form fitting. Dresses, skirts, and shorts must be knee length or longer. Hairstyles should be clean and neat, avoiding extremes in styles and colors. Excessive ear piercing (more than two per ear) and all other body piercing are not acceptable. Shoes should be worn in all public campus areas.

mission statement..."All students at BYU should be taught the truths of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Any education is inadequate which does not emphasize that His is the only name given under heaven whereby mankind can be saved. Certainly all relationships within the BYU community should reflect devout love of God and a loving, genuine concern for the welfare of our neighbor."

i don't think i've eaten anything today.

i want to move sooner rather than later.

went to the video store and talked to emily. she moves on friday i guess it's better that way anyway.

i've got movies to watch, but i don't feel like watching them right now. i feel more like a big burger with some seasoned fries and an oreo cookie shake or maybe one of those fresh fruit shakes from hamburger hamlet. hamburger hamlet was cool while it lasted.

i've listened to wyclef's new album a few times today, the same goes for rage's first album. the first half of wyclef's album is better than the second.

played some quake today. watch out because it might make me go on a killing spree. how ridiculous.

got the two fenders from jc whitney today, that means i have everything i need to take the car in to get painted.

my standards are too high for the now atrophied mister willie.

rock and jazz both have performers who are considered the greatest innovators genre. they have an artist, or group, that stands out as having really progressed the art over a good amount of time with consistency. the beatles and miles davis both did far and away more than anybody else had ever done. i wonder if that will happen in hip-hop or techno. there are greats in each, there are consistent performers in each, there are fathers of each, but neither seems to have a far and away stand out group that match up to miles davis in jazz or the beatles in rock.

public enemy has done a lot of things to advance hip-hop but they aren't as consistently great as the beatles were. afrika bambaataa did a lot to start new school hip-hop and even techno, but wasn't at all consistent. in this sense the beatles are pretty amazing. if you think about everything miles davis did for jazz it's like four lifetimes' worth. kraftwerk are basically the fathers of techno, but didn't have anywhere near the same output as miles davis or even the beatles. just try and name a hip-hop or techno act that has come out with 13 albums...miles davis came out with closer to 30.

8-30-00 (02:32)

there are some pieces of art that just hit the right spot. there are great pieces of music that never hit that spot, but are still great. then there are the pieces of art that are so poignant that they hit the spot everytime and will live forever. i think this is why simon and garfunkel, pink floyd, tupac, nirvana, et al. will live in infamy. something about artists like that which will inspire and move every generation from now on. the same is true, of course, for film. it's a wonderful life is a classic example...magnolia i hope will be looked upon in the same way, one flew over the cuckoo's nest....

there are those, too, that have elements of social commentary which will be historical landmarks of the time. bob dylan, public enemy, pink floyd, nirvana, devo, bob marley, dead kennedys, u2, krs-one, et al. in terms of movies i think "in the heat of the night" falls in that category. speaking of which i updated movies list.

there are some very redeeming qualities of plato's republic. families are separated at birth so you must (in theory) function as if everyone is your brother and sister. i like this.

i come up with some wack shit sometimes. i honestly don't know why i started thinking about plato/socrates.

what happened to white people that makes them suck so much?

if i become a teacher i'm going to have to avoid such questions. honestly though...what lead white males from europe to have such an overwhelming desire to colonize, control, and convert non-whites? is it inherent within all and just a matter of whites having advanced quicker than others? that is, if non-whites had reached industrialization before europeans would they end up trying to colonize? no one knows i guess, but i'm sure there are brilliant people out there with views on it and i bet you they don't agree either.

so there are brilliant conservatives and brilliant liberals. brilliant republicans and brilliant democrats. so where does that leave us?

good news - my car shipment is slotted to come sometime this week so there shouldn't be any trouble because of the move after all.

my phone number remains the same, as well as the song. i think vern will get that one and maybe johnny.

often my music allusions go over peoples' heads. it's almost like when my grandparents start talking about movies or books, good lord what a sight to behold.

now that i think about it i pretty much have only one side of my family. i wonder what would have happened if i had been raised in alabama with my other grandfather. nature or nuture? i'm guessing i'd own a gun by now. i'm sure i would have bagged my first big game by now too. a nice deer or something. i would have skinned it, cooked it up, and put its head on a piece of stained wood. one day it would hang over my fireplace and mary-anne and i would sit on our rocking chairs, me with my pipe, her with her knitting materials. we'd sit there and rock.

honestly - why is it okay to kill lettuce, but not okay to kill deer? why is it okay to eat cow, but not dog?

i'm against domestication of animals. if you must have a cat or dog then you should get one off death row, i mean the pound. what's more, you should treat this animal like a member of the family, anything less is inhumane. when i'm 60 and can give enough time to pets i will get a dog from the pound and let it eat off the table. it will eat from the same t-bone as i. it can sit up on the chair for all i care, or maybe i'll just lay on the floor and eat with it. just the dog and me. ahhh, that's the life. i'll have a hearing aid and a fake set of teeth. i'll be sterile because i drink too much mountain dew and play the bass on my stereo to loudly.

cars are the coolest piece of engineering you see everyday.

this is emily's last week. i might see her when i drop off the video tomorrow.

i don't know where my rubberband is, i need to get some more.

jesus came over today. that's hay-sus (roommate from freshman year), not god's son jesus. hay-sus was in a foreign country on a "mission" (presumably from god). while he was there he helped orphans, he prayed for them, and "interacted with them." i was tempted to ask how many converts he got, but socialization kicked in (it rarely does these days). i want to go to a foreign country and feel real good about changing the way people live by showing them the light, the way, the western way, the way of god, etc. it would give me such a happy feeling inside. especially if i thought i was doing a noble thing by showing them that the afterlife is all that matters.

don't go crying for an afterlife while they steal this one. i think malcolm x would agree.

i think smoking too much crack has made this update more exciting than i had anticipated. maybe i should sleep.

8-29-00 (22:00)

got my new portable cd player, it's really inexpensive and works well. i have it hooked up so that i can play cds and listen to the quake sound effects at the same time which is nice. it doesn't sound as nice as when it goes straight through my receiver, but it's decent enough.

played some golf today with vern, vern's cousin (allison), and jon. that was fun. we went on the driving range and then did some practice holes on the putting green. i'd say that allison is cooler than most any other girl i've met while in college. that goes to show you how lame the selection has been this year. allison is also 14 so maybe she hasn't been soiled yet.

in other news: we cleaned much of the house today. the kitchen is still a bit dirty.

phil comes up tomorrow around 9pm.

looks like we might be able to get vern to come down to la now which will be cool, i think we'll have fun. it's everything a road trip should be.

i should just pretend i have a girlfriend from now on. i should have mock phone calls in the middle of movies. i should stay on the phone for hours and then come out with a long face and tell everyone how we've been on the rocks lately. then the next day i'll we'll have great make-up sex and i'll be cheery again. note to friends: from now on 6 hours out of the day will be spent with "cassandra" sorry if you wanted to hang out.

i think david lean needs to have hired a good editor for his movies.

we picked up another paint job today. we'll just tell student works that we forgot about it, but we'll paint it anyway. i think we should make some profit on this mutha.

i think nader will go down in the books like debs.

i'm going to vote nader. it's retarded to vote gore just because it's going to be a close race. my vote doesn't matter either way so i may as well vote the way i want to vote. at this point i want to vote anything other than the major two so nader seems the logical choice, just to make a point.

113 thousand votes separated nixon and kennedy.

i don't want kids, ever. i think people should stop breeding for a couple years.

i re-realized today that this world sucks nut.

jim kurring (john c. reilly in magnolia) is the absolute shit. i love hime like none other.

i think i'm my own best friend. not sure if that is pitiful or really cool.

freedom is tricky business.

i realized yesterday when i was warming up my car that malcolm is the shit. he sounds so damned good.

i am a tard

8-29-00 (00:54)

didn't do anything of much import today.

vern were deciding what we should do when mary (jon's second girlfriend) and her friend, katie, walked in. jon is SF, but they didn't care so we went to jamba juice, border's, and then saw a movie back at home. i'm going to send their parents the bill in the mail.

tomorrow is slated to be hectic. lots of cleaning. a few errands i should run, one being getting a refund for phil's abandoned train ticket.

soundgarden is better than i remember.

looked at a "top 1000 albums ever" book today. those lists are always fun because i never agree with them...nor does anyone so they are the center of debate. at any rate, this one was put out by virgin megastores and had zero hip-hop albums in the top 130. they had a few techno albums (prodigy's two big ones, chemical bros...) they had jazz, blues, even country all within the top 130 albums. the 131st album was public enemy's "it takes a nation of millions to hold us back." i think it's sad that the best hip-hop album, to them, couldn't crack the top 130.

for the record: i think the beastie boys' "paul's boutique" is a better album than public enemy's, but they're both great and i can see how pe's album would be chosen over paul's boutique.

the first four were revolver, the white album, abbey road, and nevermind. i like the beatles, but they're overrated.

one last note on this crappy list: led zepplin didn't make an appearance until after prince (the artist) in the mid-30s. there aren't 30 albums better than led zeppelin IV, there are maybe 10, at best.

i revised my favorites page so that the cd section is easier for me to do. i have it separated in groups now...top ten, top thirty, etc. there are more than 10 in the top ten, that means some might be tied. it's called an easy out. as opposed to your mom, who is an easy in.

that one was too easy.

owning all the beatles albums will fuck up my whole damned system. i can avoid them now because i don't own them on cd, but once i do then they're going to demand i high place on my cd case and a high place on my rankings list.

luke finally updated his fucking fucking fucking website.

8-28-00 (01:32)

wyclef's new album is different. not as good, but it's growing on me. some of the beats are off the hook, crazy mad ill, if you know what i mean. kenny rogers makes a cameo and wyclef combines country and rap, it's actually good. that's why wyclef has skills. both wyclef cds have cd-text which is cool because my cd player supports it.

went to the video store twice today. as it turned out the video store girl was there both times. i told her about my 300 movie goal and told her about my charming personality, we had sex. actually we only talked for a couple minutes. this is her last week working there so time for me to do nothing is limited.

made some apple pie tonight, it's almost all gone.

updated movies list. stacy came over, we also had sex.

i think i'm beyond having a relationship. i say beyond because i realize that they're pretty much a waste at this point.

if jon comes back home tomorrow then we'll clean the house, if not, then i'll have no part in it. or maybe i'll just get fed up with it and clean anyway. i want not to unless everyone is present. we'll see.

phil says he's coming up on wednesday.

vern says he doesn't want a five day vacation because 15 bucks a day plus food is too much to pay.

there are some things in life i will never understand.

streaming video on the internet is a joke, especially when you only have a modem.

i think clinton is in the upper half of the presidents, but i think he did his fair share of idiotic things. "welfare reform" not being the least of them. there is an article called "the worst thing bill clinton ever did" it's about welfare reform. i have mixed feelings on nafta. creating jobs is good, creating minimum wage, part time, non-benefit yielding jobs is not. the rich are still getting richer, the poor - poorer. americans are still without health care, though that is more the fault of republicans, i think.

"acting like you drink alcohol, when all you do is throw up."

i barely could recognize jon voight in catch-22...man has he aged.

the only woman in paths of glory happened also to be kubrick's wife. she did a really good job in the movie too.

i just realized that bill borchardt died exactly one year after tupac. i'll have to pour out some extra juice for another fallen comrade.

kinda updated my favorites page.

8-27-00 (01:22)

search for one-eyed jimmy is on tv. it's a funny movie.

watched patton. updated movies list.

if a war movie ends in the army rejoicing then i think the whole movie has missed the fucking point of war.

i'm very interested in the history of war, though i know very little about it. i'll do something about that tomorrow.

130 movies left to watch, 126 days left in the year. i really have slacked off this last week.

today was spent alone, but was not entirely lonely.

put a kvie (local pbs station) sticker in my car today. it's one of those that sticks because of static electricity rather than glue. works for me.

i should watch two movies tomorrow and get a couple more for monday.

scott won't be here monday so i guess cleaning will be delayed.

i really hope we get our security deposit back, if we do i'll splurge and buy some textbooks this quarter.

november 7th is the new release date for fatboy slim's album. we'll see about that.

8-26-00 (21:45)

there's a toyota truck commercial that shows a pickup truck going off on some trail bumping about and such. eventually is stops and deposits a green liquid that has been accumulating during this trip on the trail. the liquid is then stored in a container labeled "adrenaline." the commercial isn't anything great, but if one could bottle adrenaline surely prodigy's "music for the jilted generation" would be the source for infinite amounts of the said adrenaline.

played quake while listening to prodigy at a very loud volume, it was excellent.

i haven't really eaten today. had a sandwich which was good.

bought some chrome cleaner for my car...holy shit it works really really well. polished up the bumper, which was once rusted beyond recognition, to a nice shine. did the same for three out of four hubcaps...the fourth is damaged so i may as well buy a new one. best thing about this chrome cleaner is it's cheap and goes a long way, even though i spilled much of it on the ground. retarded.

i wonder if vern got the scooter. i'm thinking he didn't since he hasn't called or emailed. that would be cool if he did though.

i think my car is the project i've been seeking out for so long...it's something i can work on every weekend if i want, it's something that will need work for quite a while, it's something rewarding, and it's something that is varied enough (interior, exterior, mechanical, audio, etc.) that won't get boring. on the down side it costs money, lots of it.

the niners keep losing close games, it sucks nutsack. i'm sorry i mean it sucks scrotum.

the raiders kicked ass over the seahawks so that's retribution for the niners. yay.

ted stossel (sp?), the idiot from 20/20 - not connie chung - the other idiot, was going off about how society takes drug use among politicians lightly yet prosecute people for possession of drugs harshly. he's right in that there is a hypocrisy there, but he's still a moron.

8-26-00 (15:19)

here's what kind of weirdo i am: today i was worrying that i wasn't being a fair owner to my stereo equipment. i tried to figure out what i could do to be a better person to my receiver and cd player. i am worried that they have a consciousness and if they do then i am basically enslaving them. i finally realized that there isn't much more i can do to be a better person in regards to my treatment of my stereo equipment. i don't let other people use it, i blow the fan towards it when it is hot, i don't abuse it, i don't leave it on all the time, i dust it regularly, i don't overload it, i'd say i'm pretty nice to my stereo equipment...i hope he thinks the same thing.

i think more people could relate if i were talking about my car...the fact is that i treat almost all my possessions with the same love as i do my stereo equipment and car.

there isn't much in life that one can control. something i feel i can, to a certain extent, control are my possessions. you can't control what your friends are going to do to you, what people think of you, the weather, the mistreatment of people across the globe, who becomes president, etc. you can try your best to control yourself and your possessions. the problem is that most of the time your possessions end up owning you... as long as i can stay away from that then i'll be okay in that regard

i think all of this babbling has wasted too much of everyone's time.

i burned the hell out of my finger tip last night.

8-25-00 (23:17)

really didn't feel like watching "giant" tonight.

went to safeway and say this hottie who was in a couple of my poli sci classes, driving by in her jeep while listening to moby. i turned around and walked right by her as she was going to her car. instead of talking to her about moby or my chiseled chest i just kept walking. dumb.

then i got to the safeway parking lot and saw the video store girl in a jetta with her friend. she waved, i waved back. nothing there.

then i finally reached safeway and saw a guy who i could swear went to my high school. rather than asking him i shopped on my merry way.

it's 11pm on friday night. vern is at home, possibly with a new scooter, jon is at his tahoe home, scott is either at work or at a bar. this is what separates me from the rest of the college world.

my cd case looks a little nicer from now that the clear stain has dried.

my room is a little cleaner now that a bunch of my crap is in boxes.

i might be selling one of my gay monitors tomorrow for 10 bucks.

updated mp3list.

updated cdlist.

not only are relationships not for me, but dating isn't for me either. wow.

i can't convey to you how boring this all is right now. moving out in about 5 days, no one is around, all the packing that can be done has been done, cleaning will be done on monday, don't feel like watching a movie, icq is boring, a girlfriend would be nice in this situation.

8-25-00 (19:04)

we stained the front door of our last job, that was interesting because the son was there with his friends one of which was a hot chick.

afterwards we went to the last ever payroll friday and said goodbye to everyone. i wore my "pimp the bitch" shirt and jon wore his "you're all whores" shirt. it was funny to us, but probably not to them.

vern is in santa clara looking over a scooter, he may come back on sunday with a new vehicle or not; we shall see.

got the new wyclef album, listening to it right now, sounds good. he's a really great producer.

people aren't meant to be happy, rather to pursue it (happiness) constantly. with all this industrialization and excess freedom and leisure time people get far along and then realize that happiness can't really be achieved by the methods society has set up.

the message is an exceedingly great song in every way possible. nothing pops out as a better song in the 80s, not right now anyway.

simplicity of character is the natural result of profound thought.

i've got three movies to watch...two are over 3 hours long.

i've also got some stain that i want to use on my cd case.

20:40...stained the cd case, now i'm getting high on my own supply. i mean on the stain fumes.

i'm going to watch at least one movie today.

8-25-00 (01:31)

the new rage against the machine video premieres tomorrow. it has a bunch of footage of various people like oliver north, clarence thomas, monica lewinsky, bill clinton, the big seven ceos (of the big seven tobacco companies), etc all raising their right hands to an oath. of course the obvious implication is that they're all the same in that they all have lied. it also cuts between gore and bush both saying, almost verbatim, the same things. the end of the video says that 50% of the american people won't vote because of a lack of real choices. it's a great video. if anyone can get it in any movie file format i would be forever indebted.

marc gave me a couple short shorts to read, which he had written. i liked them overall.

the last poets is a great black jazz poetry style group.

8-24-00 (19:58)

finished our last job today. we were plenty underbudget too which means we have finally gotten our shit down.

there was a bmx style bike at the house. it had no brakes, but worked okay other than that so we gave it a whirl in the backyard. i have finally learned how to lift the rear wheel while riding. lifting the front wheel has always been easy, but lifting the rear wheel was a feat i had never reached until yesterday when jon learned me how. it's pretty dope to finally be able to do that. now all i need to do is lift the whole bike from the ground in one deft maneuver....

tomorrow is payroll friday. one last look at the capitalist scum that comprises student works painting.

i'm trying to get rid of worthless shit that has been accumulating in my room. got rid of a butt load last night, but still have some choices i need to make.

moving in just 7 days. starting school again in about 30.

a road trip is in the works for sometime early september. not sure if i mentioned it already. at any rate it could be cool, but it could cost a tidy sum as well. if we could figure some way to disable the odometer then we could get many miles for free and therefore make the trip much easier on everyone's pocket book. another problem is where we will sleep while in la. we shall see how/if it works out.

i'm pretty down with queen. even though they're pretty much a singles band they're pretty good.

vern is saving me 250 bucks by letting me use his monitor. whew.

paid for more insurance yesterday, quite a chunk. i think i'm going to start whoring myself out in september.

8-23-00 (22:07)

wasted a couple hours of my life watching that survivor crap.

i'm on an elo trip.

there's a funny picture of vern on johnny's website. good fun.

luke and ryan should update their page once in a while.

we worked pretty quickly today. tomorrow we'll be done.

tribe called quest just about defines good hip-hop.

amazon is having a very tempting sale on a shit load of classic rock. (remember that shit load is more than a butt load, but less than a fuck load). at any rate, pretty much all the beatles albums are 12 bucks, same with led zeppelin, pink floyd, etc. i could get all the beatles albums and only be a couple hundred in debt. ha.

the jump feature on winamp rocks.

the poll results are shaping up to be somewhat interesting. some optimistic soul thinks i've already gotten laid. if only...

8-23-00 (17:47)

cooked up my apple sausage a couple days ago and it was pretty damned good.

8-22-00 (21:32)

phil is gone.

work was short today. this is our last official job and will probably end up being our last job of the summer.

there is talk of a trip down south in a rented uhaul truck. it would cost a lot though. phil seems to be moving in sometime in early september, last i heard.

i think feast or famine is a good way to live one's life.

23:57...

marie has an ebay feedback rating of 17210 now. crazy.

don't bring me down is a great great song. elo, of course.

packed a bunch of shit tonight, that was good to do.

paths of glory is a great movie.

i think i have a bad memory. names definitely don't stick.

been getting a lot of rare nirvana lately. i want all their singles. singles are hard to come by...same with just about every band. music stores only keep the recent ones, online they either don't have them or rape you on the price. you should make a music store online that sells just singles.

8-22-00 (01:32)

couldn't go to sleep last night, it sucked.

my tooth is a bit sore still, but overall good.

didn't work today because the rover had some heat problems. i was okay with not working.

watched 3 movies today and worked on the bug. phil helped me install some insulation. it'll help keep the car at a more steady temperature, which will be very nice in davisesque weather. it also should help dampen some road noise. it was cheap and a worth while project.

updated movies list.

looked online for a dvd player and a camcorder...just for shits and giggles. can get a really nice camcorder for 400 and a versatile dvd player for under 300.

insurance bill came today. also got a letter from bill clinton, finally.

anne heche broke up with ellen. i'm sorry, but i have to laugh. just as i laugh at macaulay culkin claiming he has met his "soulmate."

work tomorrow, this time for real.

8-21-00 (01:47)

meet vern's brother today, didn't think that was ever going to happen.

played some kind of ultimate football game in the pool today. it was fun. phil's head meet my tooth though. my tooth is still sore which sucks.

rented two movies, watched zero. i'm officially behind schedule now which also sucks.

i could get a decent camcorder for under 300 bucks and a pretty nice one for under 400.

8-20-00 (17:32)

today has been extremely boring except for the hour that tiger was playing some epic golf.

we have work tomorrow. i won't be able to sleep tonight.

i should rent a long movie or something.

8-20-00 (03:23)

the day was boring again.

phil brought up his video camera so at night we filmed each other doing stupid things...from mock "cops" type stunts to riding on jesus at midnight. it was fun.

arla is gone from safeway forever and i missed saying goodbye. that sucks.

there isn't much to do on the computer these days.

my stomach hurts.

i can't wait to move and start over.

i want to build something.

i don't listen to soundgarden as much as i once did.

got another run dmc cd today. haven't had time to hear it though.

moving is going to cause problems for all the things i've ordered which haven't come yet. i'll have to sort all that out sometime next week.

somewhat sleepy.

8-19-00 (02:34)

updated movies list.

went golfing today.

went to the dentist the other day.

8-18-00 (13:50)

phil is here.

it's coming up on the time to start cleaning and packing up. moving should be a good thing.

haven't been watching many movies lately which is pretty stupid, i might go watch one today.

we've done absolutely nothing lately. jon is usually with mary at night so the rest of us sit around and grumble while watching tv.

i wish i hadn't woken up so early today...it would have been far more exciting to just sleep till 6pm or so.

phil says he's going to live in davis next month...with jon and monique. that would be interesting.

rage against the machine put on a surprise concert in front of the democratic national convention to protest the two party system...while Ozomatli played a riot ensued. i think ratm is cool.

still bored.

8-16-00 (00:02)

phil comes tomorrow

i have work tomorrow

bought some supplies for the bookcase i'm going to be making.

updated movies list.

8-15-00 (04:09)

woke up at 4pm today, that was fun.

updated movies list.

today was pretty much useless.

watched bridge over the river kwai finally. it was really really annoying throughout most of it. there isn't anything more annoying than pompous brits. i think william holden saved the movie. actually the ending saved the movie more than anything else. wasn't quite worth 2 hours 40 mins.

we have work wednesday. phil might be coming up tuesday night or maybe wednesday night.

jon got kicked out of davis, but then got back in again. no surprise in either direction there.

updated editorial page. i doubt it makes any sense at 4:30am. then again war doesn't make sense anyway.

i should probably sleep before i get anymore screwed up.

8-12-00 (23:32)

i judge many things by their best or worst. this is why magnolia holds such a high place in my heart or why dan marino will never be a great quarterback in my mind.

led zeppelin albums are like potato chips - you can't have just one. whenever i listen to a led zeppelin album i want to listen to another after the first is done. i'm listening to led zeppelin I and soon i'll be listening to led zeppelin III.

mom came up today.

updated movies list.

somewhere in this world there is probably a person named jacob matthews. i wonder what his story is.

baked an apple pie today, it tastes good.

need to get a new monitor soon because the one i use now is borrowed. i should sell my other semi-working monitors as well.

i'm better suited to live in the 60s. political movements, great music, free love, good cars, etc.

8-12-00 (01:03)

updated movies list.

there was a hot chick at the video store today. i didn't make much of an effort, such is my life.

doc came over and slept through half of the movie.

today was very boring.

updated stupid poll, answer honestly it should be interesting.

8-11-00 (02:07)

so there's a dilemma arising...nirvana wants to move ahead of black sabbath, metallica wants to move ahead of nirvana, the doors just moved ahead of guns and roses. pink floyd wants to be ahead of guns and roses and the doors and will likely do so. some of the problem lies in the fact that i have all the good black sabbath albums, all the nirvana albums, all the metallica albums, all the guns and roses albums, and almost all the doors albums. this shifting is very important because it all takes place within the top ten. i can foresee pink floyd moving up big time just because i haven't gotten several of their albums still. then of course there are the beastie boys and rage against the machine, both bands have not finished making albums so they could make a run on each other, or even led zeppelin.

led zeppelin, beastie boys, rage against the machine, black sabbath, nirvana, metallica, the doors, guns and roses, pink floyd, ac/dc, ccr, deep purple, stp, jimi hendrix, rolling stones, red hot chili peppers, elo...

that wasted a lot of space.

8-10-00 (19:16)

seinfeld is coming up soon.

this week has pretty much sucked large hairy nuts.

worked today which will be nice when i get the money.

didn't learn very much today because i was working. talked to old man who paints his own tractors piece by piece. he seemed cool. he has a son who does autobody work, but is too busy to work on anymore cars.

i want to get an internship at an automotive repair place. i think cars are extremely cool.

bought a vw magazine last night with money i have only temporarily.

doc has been visiting a lot lately, this is good. not as good as pink floyd's "dark side of the moon"

gave my sister simon and garfunkel's "bridge over troubled water" - she better recognize its greatness.

got three more cds today (in mail) two by the doors and one by eazy-e. cdlist updated. my ac/dc and doors collections have rounded out quite well in recent weeks.

nirvana is begging to pass up metallica. with metallica's recent decision to sell their souls i might oblige nirvana's wish.

i should cook food and watch tv.

8-9-00 (20:42)

if one says 'fuck' too often then it loses its meaning...the same applies to thank you, sorry, please, love, and many other words.

updated movies list.

there are some movies that may be flawed in their construction, but when you look back on them all the good things stick out...those movies are the kind i really like. serpico and vanishing point are of that type.

bought a hammer and crowbar today.

8-9-00 (14:04)

looked on the library of congress page and it seems that ted kazcynski's book was never released, although it was supposed to be published last year. i guess i should have expected it.

i woke up about 10 minutes ago and have already learned about super and turbochargers on cars...very cool stuff.

the new porsche 911 turbo kicks some major ass. 0-60 in 3.9, 192 top speed, excellent handling, gas mileage which is better than a lot of suvs and it's twin-turbocharged. it's also cheaper than equivalent aston martins and ferraris.

8-9-00 (01:18)

here is an article about how to fit in at kdvs...it's pretty much right on; so much so it's sick.

updated movies list.

got chased by the po-po (police) today while on jesus. eventually i stopped and he yelled at me to come toward him. i told him i was going back home to get a coupon for blockbuster video. he told me i needed to have a motorcycle license and helmet for jesus. i played dumb and asked him more questions along this line to seem concerned and ignorant. he answered them like the knowledgeable and nice officer that he is. finally he let me go without any problems...i was free and he felt like a good man/cop.

donated 120 bucks to kvie (local pbs station) today. i think i get a book in return. it's only money.

i have realized that i will be forced to spend a lot of money in the next months...books, first and last months rent, furniture, other moving in/out costs, etc.

i learned more today than i did yesterday.

it seems people have an idealized view of their relationships. macaulay culkin sure did. people always have people in their life they think will remain friends for a very long time, usually that doesn't end up being the case. if someone is realistic about this then it's considered bad, i've never understood this.

i'm still trying to find kazcynski's book...it seems as though it never existed....the publisher says it has halted publication of it. sounds like the man to me.

the kitchen is clean again.

we haven't worked since friday and i have no idea when we are going to work again. although jon asked me at midnight if i was willing to work the next day (the next day being 8 hours from when he asked me). of course i said no.

the good thing about not being in power or having many friends or having many plans with the friends i do have is that when i make an impulsive decision it doesn't affect anyone. one more reason not to have a wife.

8-7-00 (23:47)

updated movies list.

Macaulay Culkin and his wife are splitting up, it's amazing how predictable that was.

8-7-00 (19:12)

chris on being a DJ: i've thought about not being a dj next year. being a dj, for me, is about playing music i enjoy. if i have a co-dj then it should be a cooperative effort. when being a dj becomes more about catering to an audience or worrying about what my audience does or does not enjoy then it isn't as fun for me. this is somewhat against what most djs believe. last quarter the radio show wasn't as fun as it had been in the past. my co-dj played his music and i played mine, there was little or no cooperation. thus i think i will not become a dj next year unless i have my own slot or we have a late night slot which will open up our show a little more to experimentation and probably be more fun.

i can foresee senior year being very crappy.

8-7-00 (17:00)

updated movies list.

updated cd list. tower is constantly changing their layout around, kind of annoying, but i like how it looks now. picked up the new rage against the machine single - on the cover is fists of freedom picture...the classic 1968 olympics medal ceremony picture. i also picked up coltrane's 1965 ground breaking free jazz album - "ascension."

Tommie Smith and John Carlos after placing 1st and 3rd in the 200m race at the 1968 Mexico City Olympics.

the home shopping network was selling 500 and 1000 dollar bills on tv the other day. i think the 500 was going for 1000 bucks and the 1000 was going for 2500. that's pretty sad.

i have about 100 bookmarks and i use about 5 of them on a regular basis.

so lieberman is going to run with gore. i guess that's good in that gore is more likely to win now. anything to ensure that gwb doesn't get elected is okay by me.

"But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security..."

"They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends..."

Declaration of Independence

i learned a lot of stuff today. i also fixed my toilet bowl, finally.

8-6-00

"i'm an average nobody, i get to live the rest of my life like a schnook." - goodfellas

updated movies list. 154.

in vanishing point the DJ talks about the "last american hero...the super driver of the golden west..." it's a great little speech. guns and roses used it in "breakdown" (one of their best songs) and when i think about it i know i have heard it in another song somewhere else. jon thinks it was in a techno song, i'm not sure, but either way it's a good sample.

checked out my counter information to see who has been visiting my site. it was the first time i had done so in a while. i found six hits from ethiopia so i'll assume those were monique. pretty cool to have a hit from ethiopia on my site.

fed the fish next door. that was the highlight of my day.

obi wan died today, phil will be crushed when he hears.

"set the controls for the heart of the sun" - great track on ummagumma, the live album.

i like having a lot of hard drive space. 13.4 gigs free is a good amount. oh and then there's the 2+ gigs free on the other hard drive. i sent phi his hard drive last week, that was useful while i borrowed it.

not sure why, but i updated my everything list. it has all my mp3s in one fat list. really it's useless except for being able to see how many mp3s i have including the beastie boys stuff. 841 with 56hrs 44mins worth of stuff.

i think that moving will be a good opportunity to slim down, like johnny. i have a lot of stuff that i probably don't need. i might get rid of some useless furniture and build something that is more suitable, not sure yet. i need a place to put my movies. my bookshelf has only two shelves, it's kind of dumb. i need to think vertically.

luke and ryan's page is hardly ever updated. i wonder if they'll update it while in college. i wonder if luke will still be going out with jenny. i don't have much faith in any relationships at this point.

johnny updates his webpage more than expected, that's good.

"it's okay to eat fish because they don't have any feelings" - nirvana

i'm moving in less than a month.

i'm too critical of peoples' music tastes. i hope i'm not an old man who claims that the only good music is led zeppelin and pink floyd. that would be elitist and close-minded, that would be bad. i don't know anyone who has enough knowledge of music to seriously criticize music based purely on artist merit. i don't know what makes good music good or bad music bad. and i wouldn't have it any other way. the last thing i want to do is tell someone that their favorite band uses syncopation awkwardly, has no sense of chordal progression, and lacks any semblance of cohesion.

kdvs has a good group of people, unless you get them started on music in which case they will often times be very judgemental and elitist.

mike d watched strangers on a train recently while recovering from surgery. the tour will happen in a few months, i'll be there.

bs 2000 pt. 2 is coming out later in the year. hell yes. rage against the machine is coming out with a covers type album sometime, but i try not to find out exactly when because these things seem to always get pushed back. zach de la rocha is supposed to be working on something too. then there is the oct. 12th beastie boys dvd. so i guess i'll need a dvd player by oct. 12th.

not only is mike d watching strangers on a train, but he is also listeing to Jagjit Singh. so i went to amazon.com (per the link on the beastie boys site) and read the reviews...one review is from "A music fan from New York, USA"...I'd be willing to bet 50 bucks and my left nut that this "music fan" is mike d.

that 50 bucks and my left nut quote is from planes, trains, and automobiles...del griffith (john candy) says it when betting that the plane is landing in chicago...sure enough it ends up in Omaha...from there neil page and del griffith attempt to get to chicago via planes, trains, and automobiles in time for thanksgiving.

so here's the theory...people usually care about your criminal record up to a few years ago...when you apply for a job they often only ask if you have been convicted of a felony up to 5 years ago. i think the same should apply for your sex life. so in my case i've pretty much never done anything with a girl because all wrong doing has been cleared off my record. sure there were two relapses, but i'm no longer a felon.

i don't like paying for anything i can do myself. i don't think i'll ever hire a maid, i don't want to pay for car washes, i won't pay anyone to paint my house, now that i know how to do it myself. maybe one of these days my time will be so precious that i'll have to pay someone to do these things, but i'm hoping not. i think it is fair to measure how enslaved one is by how much their time is worth. enslaved to what is the only difference. one can be enslaved to the family in which case it's not so bad, it's actually expected. if i say i don't want to have kids i'm automatically weird. this is for obvious reasons. where we let go of our natural desires and where we hang on to them is interesting. it's good to have kids, it's bad to want more than one sexual partner.

paths of glory had some really kick ass dialogue, esp. in parts. jim thompson worked on the screenplay. my dad has a shit load (more than a butt load, less than a fuck load) of his books.

winamp has a fuck load of skins. johnny made one of them.

no work tomorrow, in fact i don't really know when we're going to have work again.

i can't foresee myself pursuing a woman any time soon. i really haven't seen anybody worth pursuing in a long time.

i watched more tv than i wish to admit today...luckily about 4 hours of it was worthwhile because of the two movies i saw. i still felt very bored by today.

hopefully tomorrow it's cool enough to sleep in past 12.

8-6-00 (01:12)

updated movies list. i now own 5 kubrick films. paths of glory was great. saw it about 10 years ago, but obviously i didn't remember much of it. when i give my critiques i should start getting really arty. paths of glory was a tour de force of film making. it reminded me of a winter's walk along the snowy plains of siberia. i especially enjoyed kubrick fervent adhesion to themes of...what a crock.

jon invited mary over. we played basketball. then they went to watch a movie. i built a house out of q-tips with kim (jon's sister).

i made a cobbler today. it is decent, not as fluffy as could be. too much butter and cream used in the dough and i used baking soda instead of baking powder. all things considered it actually came out pretty well. serve warm with a dabble of vanilla.

i'm going to return my video card. i installed it and cute ftp would crash when i opened it. this is unacceptable so fuck that. i will not have contamination of my precious bodily fluids. ha ha ha kubrick.

the great thing about the simpsons is that the more you know, the more you'll laugh. it always has references to movies, tv shows, pop culture, etc. i like that.

8-5-00 (00:25)

woke up and went to work by 1pm because we didn't have much work to do. ended up leaving the job site at 9:30pm because we had much work to do. packing was a bitch. vern wasn't there because he's in santa cruz again so the going was slower.

saw about 50 hot chicks in the pizza parlor today and i realized that i'll never get a girlfriend and will forever be single. a jefferson airplane tune rings in my head...

moby's "play" is really great, but you knew that.

my mom is cool, so is my grandmother.

my feet are really tired. my injuries never get better because i'm on my feet all day and walking on uneven surfaces. going up ladders and coming down on hoses isn't helpful either.

bought a ankle brace.

scott bought a motorcycle. 650cc, 601ccs bigger than jesus.

i'm going to hopefully make some apricot/blueberry cobbler tomorrow.

our kitchen is worse than i had ever thought possible.

phil might come up in not too long for another visit.

no movie today, bad news. paid yesterday, good news.

got a video card today. or should i say, it came today. install tomorrow?

i want to play basketball, but i probably shouldn't for a while so that my ankle can fully recover.

that's about all there is to say.

8-3-00 (23:43)

no matter how much you hope to or think you do control your life, you really don't.

updated movies list.

talked to johnny today, that was cool.

i'm glad i have a new basketball now.

8-3-00 (17:53)

if you think about something then you generally care about it. if you don't think about it then it might be safe to say that you don't care about it. the time spent caring about something might indicate how much you care about it. most people who care about their family and friends think about them and what they have to say. if someone tells me that i do something that really bothers them or hurts them then i do the following: determine how much i care about this person. determine how much i care about the think that bothers them so. if the thing that bothers them is an integral part of my personality then i will most likely not change. i weigh how much i care about the person, how much i care about the issue they've addressed and then decide whether to elminate that behavior from my interaction with them or not.

i had a friend who did not like it when i said a certain word around him. i determined that the word was not of enough importance in relation to his friendship so i dropped it from my vocabulary when around him. when i do slip up i say sorry for it. because he told me about being bothered and because i responded in a rational fashion i was able to keep his friendship and make my interactions with him all the more smooth and fun.

"love, love, is a verb. love is a do word." if this is true then really love is just an extension or way of demostrating your care for a person.

it makes me think that caring has a lot to do with life. how much one cares about a situation determines how they deal with it. the other part of that would be their perception of the issue's importance. republicans perceive gun safety as less of a problem than democrats. based upon that and how much they care about gun safety in relation to other issues, or the amount of money they get, they decide what to do about gun safety.

some people decide not to care about things. they are apathetic. apathy is a disease in a country where people die, starve, and suffer every day without people caring. because people don't care they often don't vote. they also don't perceive participation manifested in voting as a worthy activity. this is a factor in people not caring about voting.

malcolm x cared almost too much. lincoln cared so much that it showed on his face. stress is caused by caring. i don't care too much about my grades so i don't stress about it. one must choose what they care about and to what degree. i care about friends and family because, after all, what is a friend who doesn't care?

hopefully you care too.

what's cool about people like johnny is that if they care about something they'll tell you. there's not much mystery, not much guessing. it makes things a lot easier. i try to be like that by telling people how i feel more often than i used to.

8-3-00 (00:34)

today was a short and very very hot work day. tomorrow we hope to finish this job and rest on friday.

i should sleep.

went to the spa tonight which was relaxing.

there has been some talk of doing a few under the table jobs and with the money going to ibiza for a couple weeks. it would be a good experience, but it would cost a grip of dough and there are many obstacles. we shall see.

got three movies in the mail today. killing, paths of glory, and one flew over the cuckoo's nest. three greats.

bought a basketball, small binoculars, and an ankle brace today.

8-2-00 (01:11)

jon invited mary over tonight to watch a movie. she came and we did a really crappy job of being entertaining. it's no wonder i don't get any chicks. sad.

work is a little later than usual tomorrow. good.

tired.

sloop john b. is probably my favorite beach boys tune.

updated movies list.

8-1-00 (18:03)

finished up the same job we finished up this time last week. that was fun. last week the problem was that we needed 4 gallons of paint and only had 3. this week we bought 4 and used 3, go figure.

people say ummagumma (by pink floyd) isn't very good, but i think they smoke crack.

eating out today, i waste a lot of money on eating out people. i waste a lot of money on eating people out. i waste a lot of money on eating out, people. people, i waste a lot of money on eating out.

this is a waste of time.

archives are where they always are.