4-29-01 (16:49)
kings won. the lakers are about to win. kings game was good.
didn't go to work.
bowled four games last night. that was tiring.
have a geology test tomorrow.
4-27-01 (15:05)
cleaned and lubed my bike.
went to class.
listening to the beatles. they're not as good as led zeppelin.
i will fund a paper of any reasonable length on the historical (up to the
present) sociology of coffee shops. i will provide ten dollars for your
time.
the kdviations this quarter looks better than it usually does.
gotta go pick up melanie from work.
4-27-01 (12:41)
played some frisbee golf yesterday by myself. there was a fine young fellow
who also felt that it was a good idea to play some frisbee golf. sadly
he felt it would also be a good idea to talk on his cell phone while doing
so. yup, this guy was talking on his cell phone and playing frisbee golf
at the same time. not to be judgmental or anything, but he's a loser.
went bowling last night and did really well. also played galaga and got
to the 30th level. could have done better, but i just let my last two guys
die since it was time to start bowling. last night i was on top of my game
i guess.
i want to play some basketball next week.
i like bowling.
have class in 20 minutes.
have a test and a paper on monday and tuesday of next week.
rented five movies.
people at work were taking the survivor polls and i felt like breaking
their faces. not really, but it's the survivor polls on top of the tiffany
website and the gap website and all the other horrible places they frequent
while on the computers at work.
need to wash the car some time. if you have a car and you don't wash it
yourself at least on occasion then you're not very friendly.
don't know where i'm living next year. do know that i can't afford much
more than i'm paying now.
played basketball and gta on the computer last friday. that's major news
since it's something i haven't done in a very long time. melanie's only
been here a week.
i've been eating better than ever.
i'm broke.
gotta get to class.
should degrease and lube my bike while i'm on campus today.
people don't take care of their possesions and i think that's too bad.
sure a bike is only a bike and if it breaks then it's only money, but to
me it's more than that. i've got a special relationship with things that
provide for me...whether it be my receiver which provides loud crisp music
or my bike which provides tons of thrills and high speed transportation.
4-25-01 (23:11)
"power is not having to use it" - chris miller
only thing that smells better than davis in the spring is revenge. the
kings got their revenge tonight - they romped the suns 116-90. so i was
wrong in my prediction, but at least in the right direction. the game was
great. scott pollard is god.
tuesdays and thursdays aren't so great.
i think it's a miracle that i've only missed 6 classes so far.
my dungey (philosophy of law) class is cool, i expected that. my geology
(of the solar system) class is also cool, i mostly expected that too. my
sociology of corporations has turned out to be a course on how corporations
work and have changed in the last thirty years - so far a disappointment.
my race relations class has also been a disappointment. such is life.
melanie's got work early tomorrow.
the kings game was great.
slept on the floor last night and that didn't do much good.
put some boards under my mattress, maybe that'll be a good happy medium.
wish i could see the lakers game tomorrow.
the orbital album should come out next week. last i checked anyway.
two months from now i'll probably be in oregon or some such place.
there are a lot of things in this world which i find "funny." one of them
has got to be that people think they have the "right" to cheap electricity.
we could argue the idea of human rights all day and not even get beyond
the right to govern one's own body, much less their right to cheap electricty
or mcdonald's. people are just funny. funny stupid, not funny ha ha.
4-25-01 (18:12)
melanie is at work now so she's officially making bank again.
work wasn't too shabby.
going to watch the game tonight and the kings are going to win - 106-93.
updated cdlist.
in the movie "quest for fire" it's interesting to see how long long ago
we fell in love as a result of having sex and working together. now it
seems that we need to work together and fall in love in order to have sex.
i make no value judgments on this, it's just interesting to note.
got paid today and that is nice.
it's certainly getting more towards the hot side lately.
updated movies list.
made some cookies and cream ice cream with my new ice cream maker. yummy.
lukes (looks) like luke updated his webpage, finally.
made a doctor's appt for the back situation. i'm 21 and everyday my back
hurts (to varying degrees). i don't think that that's normal.
updated wish list.
4-24-01 (00:47)
work was longish.
fuck.
cut my hair today.
don't really like mondays and tuesdays.
have a geology test next week.
it's pretty warm inside my room right now.
thought about plenty, don't remember any of it.
4-23-01 (01:33)
had work from 12-3 today, that went slowly.
didn't do much today.
ate crab enchiladas and they were good.
i've eaten breakfast two days in a row now. having melanie around should
be good.
i'm pretty tired.
i have an ice cream maker now so expenses in that department should decrease.
lovely.
weather was really good today. played some catch at the park and that was
fun. i'm a bit sunburned. need a haircut.
4-22-01 (00:22)
melanie is here.
went to picnic day and that wasn't so shabby. spent the whole day with
melanie's parents and that wasn't so shabby either.
updated movies list.
4-20-01 (19:16)
less than three hours.
it's amazing how productive one can be when one puts their mind to it.
when i have a paper due the next day i get all sorts of things done. when
i'm trying to kill time i get my room, and the rest of the apartment, cleaned
out. when you get three guys to work on painting a house it gets done in
just a few days. what am i doing with the rest of my time? it seems that
most of the time i'm the exact opposite of productive.
i've already eaten today, wow.
did some laundry today. i came back from the laundry room at one point
to see that the door was locked and i knew that vern was out so i figured
that i locked myself out some how. our door is kinda screwy so when we
lock only the bottom lock we can sometimes just push on it and it'll open
right up. so i pushed on it and then put my body into it a bit, but it
wasn't budging. so then i took a step back and kicked it and ended up breaking
the door jamb. it turns out that vern returned while i was doing my laundry
and was taking a dump so he didn't answer the door. the managers are going
to fix it tomorrow so on the bright side we're getting our door jamb replaced.
either i'm one strong mother fucker or door jambs are weak.
full on raining today. tomorrow may or may not rain. picnic day might suck.
sunday is supposed to be nice and by tuesday it's going to be in the mid-80s.
fucking weather.
playoff action begins tomorrow so even if picnic day bites the dust there
is a chance i could stay entertained. actually i'll probably have to hang
out with melanie's parents so maybe that won't work out.
big book companies (barnes and noble and border's) settled for $4.7 million
over monopoly type practices. i doubt my grandparents got any of that $4.7
million.
why doesn't faith based funding from the government include funding for
muslim based programs? or maybe this should be the question - why does
faith based funding mean funding for christian based programs?
"NAFTA eliminated over 766,000 net job opportunities in the U.S. between
1994 and 2000, according to the Economic Policy Institute. "It is important
to remember that the promise of new jobs was the principal justification
for NAFTA. According to its promoters, the new jobs would compensate for
the increased environmental degradation, economic instability, and public
health dangers that NAFTA brings.""
""The steady growth in U.S. trade deficits over the last two decades has
eliminated millions of manufacturing jobs. ... Most displaced workers find
jobs in other sectors where wages are much lower, which in turn leads to
lower average wages for all U.S. workers. Recent surveys have shown that,
even when displaced workers are able to find new jobs in the U.S., they
face a reduction in wages, with earnings declining by an average of over
13 percent.""
4-20-01 (00:06)
melanie is going to be here in about 21 hours.
updated movies list.
christmas in hollis is the best non-traditional christmas song of all time.
it's so good that i had to make it the best of something. it's like when
i said that rage against the machine was one of the best bands which used
only four instruments (drums, bass, vocals and guitar).
been watching more movies lately, but they're all for weak point values.
the goal is pretty much not going to happen anyway.
so i think the kings play the suns in the first round of the playoffs,
that should be a good series.
the weather looks to be a bitch in the next couple days. once again i must
thank god and/or his dead, and now rotting, son for this.
since there isn't anything you can ever know for certain as a truth and
since there isn't an ordained Truth outside of ourselves we say that beauty
(along with many other things) are in the eye of the beholder. in a way
we are gods of our own reality. since everything we live in is created
by us then, in a sense, we've got a tremendous amount of power and freedom.
it's a shame we've pissed it away by feeling threatened and/or superior
to anyone not like us - whether in terms of looks, ideology, fashion sense,
musical tastes, education, economic status, etc.
i don't know when it rained last on picnic day, but i know it hasn't rained
on a picnic day while i've been here. i'll admit that i like it to be in
the 70s more than i like it when it's in the 90s, but this wind and chance
of rain bullshit doesn't endear me to god very much.
i'm going to blame everything on god from now on.
i had a dream which made me realize that i can count the number of times
my dad has said that he was proud of me on one hand. at the same time my
mom says it all the time so that makes up for it right? i mean if my mom
thinks i'm the coolest person in the world then it doesn't matter what
anyone else thinks because her positivity makes up for all the negativity.
positivity can be stored and collected, right? that is how it works,
isn't it?
my computer is kinda freaking out. maybe it's just the keyboard, maybe
not.
i've already had five people vote on my new poll. pretty interesting distribution.
i picked african-american, but only god knows the real answer. at least
that's what the chick from best buy would say.
when johnny and i were at best buy trying to get my dvd player cleaned
(since i was going i figured i'd get it cleaned because it's free) there
was some problem with my warranty information. i think i asked the girl
how the warranty got messed up and she said something like "i don't know;
i'm not god." that led to a conversation on the great one above - his holiness.
this is a pretty god-centric update. i'll stop. but only because god told
me to.
there should be only one banner when you view this webpage, if you're getting
three (one in each frame) then let me know. i don't know what i'll do about
it, but it's nice to know how many people are getting screwy layouts.
if you're ugly, fat, left-handed, non-white or otherwise unlike me then
i encourage you to kill yourself.
it's cool that i can say stuff like that and no one will get offended because
they know me. in fact most people who read this are rather astute and will
probably see that sentence as an indictment of anyone who is a bigot in
those (or less conventional) ways.
on the nothing really has a greater meaning tip...because a picasso painting
isn't beautiful thanks to its ability to tap into some thing above us (humanity)
called beauty (some universal conception of beauty) and since everything
else follows in this same manner it can be deduced that the word "nigger"
or "faggot" or some other offensive word isn't really offensive in the
higher sense. those words are only offensive because we make them offensive
and because we assign a demeaning connotation to them. there isn't anything
about the word itself that makes it offensive. context is everything. you
know this. it's why in england when someone asks for a "fag" no one takes
any notice. "fag" means something different. if there was some great meaning
behind the word "fag" then it would mean the same thing in any culture
which was in touch with this greater meaning. (i don't think that anyone
is going to honestly atest that american english is somehow more in tune
with the higher meaning of the world and so we needn't address that part
of the argument.) i'm saying nothing new here. my theory about african-americans
using the word "nigger" is that they are redefining the word, recontextualizing
it, taking the power back, taking the meaning that society has attached
to it and changing it - it's an exercise of linguistic power. i don't necessarily
agree with this, but i don't condemn them for doing it. i understand that
the word has meanings attached to it. just as if everytime i was butt-raped
in jail my rapist would say the word "banana" i would have negative meanings
attached to the word. granted the word "banana" is more arbitrary than
"nigger," but you get the point. what i'm saying is that we all know, at
least on some level, that a word is just a word, that meanings are attached
to words and that's how they become powerful, but what i'm trying to reitterate
is that we have assigned meanings to the words, not god. the words themselves
only mean anything because we have made it that way.
i don't know where that came from. it's all basic and simple stuff and
you know it all already, but you probably don't agree with it. don't take
it as my saying it's okay to use those words - it's not. don't take it
as me saying words don't mean anything - they do. all i'm saying is that
we sometimes need to be reminded that words aren't everything, their definitions
aren't fixed, and their meanings aren't set by god. i'm sorry if using
any of the above words has offended anyone. seriously.
it even seems to me that the above argument is partially why the use/study
of English is an art, not a science. if every word had a completely fixed
definition and an assigned emotional response then literature wouldn't
be as much of an art as it is.
20 hours until melanie is here.
if the aptpupil.freeservers.com url doesn't work then you can try aptpupil.freewebspace.com
i'll try to upload the files at the same time.
i wish tupac were still alive. i wish john bonham didn't have to go out
the way he did. at least it gives me one more reason to hate alcohol. alcohol
is the devil and the source of all bad things. i just figured that out
right now. i'm smart and clever and i did was philosophers and scientists
have been trying to do since plato. i've found the source of all our problems.
getting rid of alcohol, thus, is the answer to all of life's problems.
yay me.
my back was better today than it was yesterday, and that is good.
shit! i missed survivor tonight. poor vern has work on thursday nights
so he misses it every week. a moment of silence for vern's lost happiness.
fridays are better than all days except saturday.
i should make sure that i have enough space on the website servers to upload
all the pictures for this summer's trip.
going to sleep now.
4-19-01 (20:02)
updated poll.
updated movies list.
there is nothing in the world which is ordained by a higher power as beautiful
or better than another thing. ergo we should be able to look at art and
accept that it is beauty to some and not to others. we can try and say
that one piece of art is more artistic because the artist obviously knew
more about his/her art, but we have created the rules of art so it's all
arbitrary in the end anyway. take music for an example...you can say that
the beatles are better than the doors because they understood music theory
better than the doors and because they used a wider range of musical styles
to create their music. but the only reason we see those traits as being
valuable is because somewhere down the line someone in power arbitrarily
chose those traits as desirable. actually those people who have decided
upon what bases a thing should be judged didn't do it entirely arbitrarily,
they also did it to maintain their power and to help perpetuate what they
felt was beauty. i think that everyone who's thought about it probably
already knows it, but i don't know anyone (including me) who really lives
by it.
i'm bored. maybe i should eat.
4-18-01 (18:13)
if there's one conclusion you should get from all this discussion of post-modernism
it's that there is no set standards for good/bad, beauty, worth, etc. as
such it should be fairly evident that beauty, along with everything else,
is in the eye of the beholder. i just wish we had a society that was conducive
to this. we say that america, with its doctrine of human rights, is such
a place, but in reality we shun anyone with divergent points of view. that,
to me, is sad.
the way some people are able to love each other, despite ugliness or unworthiness
by societal standards, shows me that on a very basic level post-modernism
has at least some validity.
4-18-01 (10:20)
"a dangerous resolve -- the christian resolve to find the world ugly and
bad has made the world ugly and bad."
"what is the seal of attined freedom? -- nolonger being ashamed in front
of oneself."
"the conditions of god. -- 'god himself cannot exist without wise men'
-- luther said, and was right. but 'god can exist even less without unwise
men' - that good old luther did not say."
woke up early today to get some stuff done and saw that there are people
who actually wake up early on a regular basis. i don't know if i'm going
to be able to be a 9-5er.
weather is really nice right now.
i talk about the weather a lot these days, must mean that i'm a boring
person.
i'm hungry, but don't really have much in the way of breakfast food. this
is surely one reason why i don't wake up early.
the truth of the world is that there is no truth.
there is one thing that everyone has in common - their individuality.
that being said, it's amazing how similar people can be.
even nietzsche makes almost metaphysical claims about humans. he makes
claims about human nature both in the will-to-power and in his claim that
everyone has both dionysian and apollonian impulses. to me, he even borders
on making a claim that there is something beyond just our actions that
makes up our identity. i don't think he goes that far, but he seems to
get close.
i guess the whole business is sticky. if you say that there is no truth
in the world then you are puporting a truth. even if the truth you claim
is that there isn't any truth you're still making a claim to truth. it's
kinda like me making a logical argument against the merits of logic. i'm
using logic to try and defeat logic, and obviously that doesn't work. like
using scientific methods to debunk the scientific method.
i think the best thing i've ever written on this webpage was written just
10 hours ago: "fuck God and his dead son." it really encapsulates who i
am.
i'll never be able to say the word "justice" without following it up with
"whatever the hell that is." because "justice," like most things is completely
arbitrary.
it's interesting to think about how we think about things around us - from
people to pencils. we always ask ourselves what a thing is based upon what
it does. we base our understanding of things as relative to their function
and their environment.
i can't even think about this, my head is going break.
saw a shirt the other day that jared diamond would have liked it had a
picture of a snowboarder doing some crazy twisting jump and the caption
read "forget the landing - chicks dig self-mutilation."
4-18-01 (01:04)
yahoo weather calls for rain on saturday. fuck God and his dead son.
i'm certainly going to hell now.
talked to dungey today and that was, as always, good.
tuesday and thursday classes are boring. i should have been a philosophy
minor. sociology is cool and all, but philosophy is more interesting.
weather.com tells a different story than yahoo weather so maybe there is
hope.
got a longish day ahead of me tomorrow.
borrowed the jared diamond book (third chimpanzee) from the library the
other day. re-read the chapter on drug use today. good stuff. i like hearing
new views and his is certainly that.
david horowitz (not the consumer advocate guy on tv) was in davis the other
day. he's a conservative guy who's against reparations for slavery. at
any rate, he was lecturing in freeborn hall the other day and i would have
liked to see what he had to say. a bunch of students went and then left
in the middle of his speech. i would have at least heard the guy out and
then if i didn't agree with what he had to say at the end of the lecture
i would have walked onto the stage and taken a dump on the podium. it's
called respect, people.
i don't know how i'm going to make my back get back to 100%. it's the worst
when i sit down in class and such. i've got most of my mobility back. hopefully
i'll start playing basketball and that will make things better.
i'm going to get some sleep now.
4-17-01 (01:27)
been really swamped lately. have all sorts of things to do and i enjoy
sleeping too much to get most of them done.
waiting is a bitch.
they forecast rain for friday. it had better not rain over the weekend.
april has been a long month so far.
there are certain movies which are great while you're watching them and
others which are only great afterwards. magnolia is very good while i watch
it, but gets better when i think about it. koyaanisqatsi gets better when
i think about it afterwards and here's why think this is the case...since
it's 87 minutes of being bombarded by basically the same stuff over and
over it gets almost tedious while you're watching it. tedious for a good
purpose, but tedious nonetheless. after it's over you have the luxury of
just thinking about the gist of it, rather than having to take it all in
as it unfolds in the film.
paths of glory is now my favorite kubrick film.
"the last picture show" was a good movie overall. it reminded me a lot
of a douglas sirk type film...it showed a small town and then, layer by
layer, showed you how fucked up this town really was. douglas sirk did
the same thing, but with families not towns. i really liked written on
the wind.
supervisor chick at work asked me if i was going to law school since i
was a political science major. i laughed and told her that stuff was a
load of shit. she said "isn't that was poli sci majors are supposed to
do?" i said "most political science majors are retarded." i guess a more
accurate statement would have been "most people are retarded."
really i shouldn't complain because the law does more good for me than
it does bad.
if all paths in life are equally good in that none are ordained by any
power as being "the best" or "the right," then i may as well choose the
path of least resistance. i may as well choose how to view life based upon
how conducive to happiness it is. happiness is as good a highest good as
anything else. right?
i'm going to stop trying to convince people that there isn't any real truth
in the world and that they should come to grips with that because a) they
don't really listen to me anyway b) it's probably better that they not
question reality.
speaking of which i want a "question reality" sticker.
baskin robbins's chocolate chip ice cream is the best. their chips are
small and flaky, not big and obtrusive. there are lots of them and they're
small so they melt in your mouth rather than requiring you to chew them.
good stuff.
i guess i've come to grips with the fact that luke will never update his
webpage again.
the internet bores me completely. i goto an average of 8 webpages a week.
yahoo, yahoo sports, thecounter.com, johnny's site, yahoo weather, there
are probably a couple others i'm forgetting...
i'm going to sleep.
4-16-01 (00:40)
updated movies list.
i can't remember the last time i went to a music news website. i used to
go to them all the time to see what was coming out and what rumors were
flying around about which bands. i haven't even gone to the beastie boys
website in months. i just don't care unless they're touring or unless they're
coming out with something new. i figure that i'll get wind of that by the
time i need to whether i look for band info every day or every other month.
mostly i just don't care about news anymore. i guess the one exception
would be sports news.
i hope that rob zombie gets to finish his horror movie - i want to see
it.
4-15-01 (02:53)
updated movies list.
poll.
sometimes i just think that no matter what i try to do, no matter what
i learn or read i'm not going to be able to change who i am deep inside.
that's a depressing thought.
sometimes i think that we're just such animals in so many ways and that
everything outside of impulses is a rationalization.
i need to read more jared diamond because as long as i remember i've thought
about things in the same way that he does....that many of our motivations
can be traced anthropologically to our primordial selves.
bought a book on nietzsche today while i was at barnes and noble with johnny.
koyaanisqatsi was good, don't get me wrong, but it wasn't as good as i
expected. the soundtrack is great. made me want to see "man with the movie
camera" again.
thinking was probably the worst thing i could have ever done in my life.
seriously. it's caused me a lot of grief. i guess i can feel better than
other people because i think about things that others don't, or because
i think about them more deeply, but then i feel guilty about feeling better
than other people, even if they are all from texas. besides, i've thought
enough to know that feeling better than another person is retarded anyway.
so what has thinking got me? i'm not going to think about it because it'll
only depress me.
i encourage all of you to stop reading this page and watch some tv - remember
how many happy moments you've had in front of the tv...a lot more than
being alone thinking about the meaning of life, the existence of god, or
Being or Truth or...
4-14-01 (20:57)
updated movies list.
played frisbee golf again.
got some speakers in the car - they don't rattle now.
hit 110mph in the escort.
johnny leaves early tomorrow.
finally saw koyaanisqatsi. nothing that revolutionary or anything, but
still good. seemed to me that it wasn't really about life in chaos as much
as it was life in too much order. all those people going to work were doing
the same thing as yesterday, and they were going to do the same thing tomorrow
- that's not chaotic. it definitely applied to the last definition - life
which needs to be changed...i would have done it better.
tell me if you're having any
problems viewing the new webpage.
4-14-01 (03:15)
updated movies list.
went to best buy to get my dvd player cleaned.
might get car speakers tomorrow.
watched three movies today.
back felt good enough to play frisbee golf.
having johnny here has kept me busy and that's generally a good thing.
my dad is an enigma like no other. my mom is a lot easier to figure out
and i think i like it more that way. if anyone takes that as offensive
then they should probably hate psychology since it systematically
reduces us all into calculable bundles of atoms.
could get into the 80s by monday.
it's pretty late so i should sleep.
i think heidegger is right when it comes to his view of people shaping
history around the story they tell of human existence or Being. i've been
thinking the same thing for a while - he just says it better.
talked to this chick at best buy about religion.
"i pity the fool." - mr. T
4-12-01 (01:21)
"Beliefs are dangerous. Beliefs allow the mind to stop functioning. A non-functioning
mind is clinically dead. Believe in nothing..."
updated movies list.
lately it's been too windy for my taste.
cleaned the kitchen today. need to clean my room sometime. also have some
laundry to do.
kubrick remains my favorite director.
got paid today, but i'm still broke.
the last update i wrote seems like it was a long time ago, but i wrote
it just seven hours ago.
my back is at about 65% right now, it was at about 15% before. i can walk
without hurting, sitting doesn't hurt very much, i can even look down at
my feet without it hurting. hopefully i'll be back at 100% by monday.
i'm going to sleep on the floor tonight and hope that i don't wake up as
stiff as i have been after sleeping on my bed.
4-11-01 (18:34)
work wasn't too bad.
back is feeling mostly better, but still not healed completely.
melanie is coming up next week.
it's really lame how true psychology is. i find that i'm far more like
my parents than i'd like.
turning around 20 years of momentum is a tough thing to do unless you discover
religion. i don't say that jokingly. those who are most successful with
changing their lives are those who find jesus or religion in some way.
i know this from experience and observation. another great way to change
who you are is through drugs...whether prescription (prozac, zoloft, etc.)
or illicit. i guess the third thing that fits into that pretty nicely is
love. all those three things can go a long way to changing who you are
pretty quickly. let's face it changing ourselves, for ourselves is too
difficult. it takes a long time and it's hard. we want change right away.
some telemarketer just called me; i have him on hold.
not sure what i'm going to eat tonight, but i got some bread today and
might need to break into that.
i wonder how long this guy is going to stay on the line.
it's easier to not change and claim "that's just the way i am."
4-11-01 (02:48)
updated movies list.
aphex twin is good.
life is difficult.
johnny is coming on thursday.
weather could be better.
change is inevitable.
certain changes can be extremely difficult.
not sure what to do about myself.
simon and garfunkel with all their themes of loneliness and seclusion really
did know what was up.
not going to hit 70 degrees any time soon. guess jon is happy.
phil got a new car so he's happy.
not going to solve the problems of the world here so i'm just going to
sleep.
don't forget...that nbci sucks donkey dong and is going to quit this whole
internet thing so i'm moving my address...again. here
should be where you go to view my site from now on. change bookmarks accordingly.
4-10-01 (15:10)
updated movies list.
updated poll.
had that subway sandwich today and it was good.
work from 6-10, whoop whoop. guess i'll apply for the SAIII position while
i'm at work since the applications are out for the taking again.
going to watch "american job" and rest my back some more. sometimes it
feels mostly healed other times it feels like there hasn't been any progress.
i wish i could limn just how annoying this whole thing is.
limn is a dumb word.
updated a few other pages because of the move...papers page, wish list
page, about me page. tell me if you notice any broken links.
4-10-01 (12:39)
important news right now is that nbci sucks donkey dong and is going to
quit this whole internet thing so i'm moving addresses...again. here
should be where you go to view my site from now on. change bookmarks accordingly.
4-9-01 (14:19)
updated schedule, this time i remembered
to upload it.
skipping two more classes today for the good of my back. don't know if
three plus hours of class and five hours of work would be a good thing.
i'm going to rest after i finish this update.
taking geology pass/no pass will be a good relief for my final quarter.
there's really no reason to worry about having to do well in a GE course
which may or may not go well. i'd feel pretty dumb if i got a grade which
was lower than my gpa. i'll err towards the safe side.
weather is pretty good, but windy.
overall my back is feeling better and i think it should be back to "normal"
by the middle of the week...assuming i take it easy and continue my recovery
regimen.
aikman retired today. good.
8% of the people polled on yahoo sports said that aikman was the best dallas
cowboy ever. 8% of yahoo sports users are idiots. he wasn't even the best
dallas cowboy of the 90s, much less ever.
i've got mixed feelings about mj possibly coming back.
i don't have mixed feelings about the mos def song ("umi says") featured
in the nike commercial - it's supa fly dope phat funky phresh shit. or
something.
torn between top ramen and using a coupon for a subway sandwich. one is
ten cents and in the kitchen the other is a few bucks and a bike ride away.
"wet tip hen ax" is probably still my favorite aphex twin "song."
i still have about 90 duplicate cds to burn.
wish i could have seen the miami v. new york game yesterday. i've always
said that, though i don't like them, the NY knicks are one of the top two
most exciting teams to watch in the nba. actually i used to say that they
were the most exciting, but that has changed because the kings have
been a more fun team to watch the past few years. the point remains - the
knicks are a good team which almost always stay in the game and play intense
ball more often than most. when they play miami it's even more fantastic.
my computer runs well.
top ramen it is.
4-8-01 (22:38)
updated movies list.
4-8-01 (17:23)
work wasn't too bad.
my back still hurts, though not as much as yesterday...it's also lower
than it was before.
shaq played a good game today. tiger woods was better, but got help from
duval and mickelson choking near the end. the kings won and that is good.
planning on watching a yankee game at yankee stadium during the trip. after
all what's the point of going to NY if you're not going to at least look
at yankee stadium?
guess i'll eat and then lay down to rest my back some more. kind of a boring
existence.
4-7-01 (21:43)
updated movies list.
weather should start to clear up by monday, they say.
phil came over and we watched a movie. then i went to avalon and soaked
in the jacuzzi for a bit - that felt good.
work from 12-3 tomorrow, that'll suck.
can't wait till melanie gets here.
4-7-01 (15:12)
got my national park pass today so i should be able to go to any of them
for free. that's pretty neat.
work today was long and painful. my back hurts a lot and probably as much
as it ever has. this sucks.
rained enough to call it a rainy day. i don't like this weather.
lately life has been more of a pain than i'm used to.
lots to think about. nothing much to say here.
4-6-01 (13:37)
updated movies list.
things have been hectic lately.
skipped class this morning. i needed the sleep.
it rained today.
my life is in disarray.
bought a shitload of blank cds the other day. i will finish the duplicate
cd project even if it kills me.
i've got work at 3pm.
the way some people believe in god really bugs the shit out of me because
it seems like such a cop out. the only responsibility you have (to those
who believe in this way) is to serve god and be pious. as a result it seems
pretty antithetical to personal responsibility. strange because both personal
responsibility and being pious are things usually associated with the right
wing. existentialism seems to be the highest form of personal responsibility
and i don't usually think of it being associated with republicans. maybe
i'm missing something. i think later.
i'm officially addicted to ice cream. no joke.
4-5-01 (01:28)
updated movies list.
it might rain later this week. what the fuck?
i'm tired.
4-4-01 (21:36)
updated cdlist.
two more classes down.
smelled like track season today.
it's been kinda cold lately.
psychology seeks to make everyone into calculable beings. i don't like
that. if we're all the same then what's the point?
bikes are better than cars.
my back will never be 100% again. as soon as i started going back to class
it started to hurt again. this is one more reason why i need melanie around.
should watch a movie tonight.
not much to say these days.
4-4-01 (01:19)
i want to go to trader joe's some time. they have one in sacramento...think
i'll go when melanie comes up here.
woke up, went to two new classes, got home, ate, watched a movie, got some
ice cream, went to work, talked with melanie, updated webpage.
updated movies list.
looking forward to the trip more today than yesterday, that's been the
trend lately.
been looking less forward to waking up tomorrow, that, too, has been the
trend.
mandrill were good.
ordered the national parks pass last night.
an aphex twin t-shirt would be nice.
cleaned out my dresser drawers the other night, should work on doing the
same for my closet soon.
car insurance is going to cost a pretty penny.
pennies are more ugly than the other coins.
making a lot of money next year should be nice. hopefully i can put enough
aside to pay for a teaching credential program, in addition to paying off
my debt from the trip and such.
tired.
4-2-01 (17:17)
watched the news today...there was a story of some teenage vandalism and
one of the cops said "who knows what goes on in those kids' minds these
days." that kind of misunderstanding, or lack of understanding, is what
causes kids to vandalize. maybe if people made an honest effort to understand
teenage feelings they wouldn't turn into vandals. instead we alienate them
and pretend that we were never like them.
saw a coffee cup today which, among other things, had printed "liquid culture"
in big bold letters on it. i think that's pretty sad.
napster seems to work just fine for me. guess if i was searching for the
latest britney spears stuff then i might have trouble.
alienating people doesn't seem to work too well...we've been doing it for
thousands of years and i don't know that suppressing deviants has led to
anything that positive, maybe we should try to embrace difference and preach/practice
tolerance. maybe tolerance is a bad word since it implies that the thing
which is being tolerated is something that is usually offensive or intolerable.
we tolerate annoying neighbors, but we don't like them. i think that it
should go beyond simply tolerating difference. that's probably too much
to ask though.
i'm going to work.
4-2-01 (16:10)
had two classes today.
have work from 6-11, but i told them i had a meeting from 7-9 which was
scheduled before we got our schedules so i couldn't show up for those hours.
that meeting, of course, is the ncaa finals. so i should get to watch the
final two hours of that. hope AZ wins.
what are the effects of not talking to people for a great period of time?
my dad told me a story of his roommate in college who wouldn't talk to
anyone for a month and how that changed him. wonder what happens if you
stop caring about what time of day it is for a couple months. my point
is that stuff like talking and worrying about time or being late for your
next meeting, shift at work, class, etc. are things which we take for granted.
this summer should be cool because i won't be worrying too much about time
or having some place to be at a certain time. obviously we need to be back
home by a certain time, but for the most part we'll be able to just do
things at a nice slow easy pace without worrying about a schedule.
spring break was good. i bought a car. 94 escort with an engine that has
40K miles on it. drove well on the way up to davis so i'm fairly optimistic
about it lasting for the trip.
got to see my sister and that she's overall not comfortable living with
either my mom or my dad; that's pretty understandable.
i don't really have any money and my next paycheck is going to be weak.
nothing really to say. i miss melanie. going to la was pretty good overall.
wish i didn't have to go back to classes already. got good grades. kinda
feeling down right now. need to eat. i only have pasta. need to call my
insurance company and tell them to add the escort, that'll require more
money than i have. not feeling very inspired to do anything right now.
4-2-01 (01:13)
updated movies list.
updated schedule.
updated archives.
gotta get some sleep.